Jahz's blog: "Jahz"

I like this site. I am tired of the gossips that I have to deal with on Facebook. Fubar is different. I can be what I want to be without caring if it will hurt my reputation. Here, I have every right to be myself. I can be what I want to be. No one will care. No one will talk behind my back. No one will make me a butt of jokes if I get a lousy guy as my boyfriend. I am free here.

I don't want to please everybody. I am tired of that. All my life I've been this goody-good girl who is always smiling even if she is being bashed, bullied or picked on. I am tired of playing that role and I will never again let myself be a victim. It's high time that I get a life, far from phony people and disloyal friends who are only true to you when they need something from you.I'm not saying that all my friends are phonies. It's not like that. What I want to do is to limit my circle of friends to those who are true to me. I don't need a lot of friends. I just need the real ones. All I want is a peaceful life with the people who truly care for me.

Hmm..

That's the reason why I am on this site. This somehow serves as my santuary. It's weird. The atmosphere isn't exactly the place that I've been looking for, but it's perfect. I am enjoying it. So far, it has helped me calm my nerves when I am being tempted to do hara - kiri or commit suicide (Lol! Just kidding. I'm not that desperate).

Majority of the Fubar users are Americans, thus,  I did not expect that I would be welcomed here nd gain friends (I am from the Philippines). But they are friendly. I enjoy talking to them. I admit that there was one guy who, in a way, had insulted me because he thought that I was the kind of Asian who chase Military guys, but he is only one and he does not represent the whole Fubar community. I get to chat with really nice cool people who have accepted me as I am -- an Asian.

And oh.. before I forget. I am not here to get myself a boyfriend or chase a soldier. Soldiers are hot, but they are not the purpose why I am here. I am here for a new environment, new people, friends, and a way to forget my personal problems and move on.

My internet life has provided me a way to have my social lfe back. This is my form of socialization since work and grad school are taking most of my time.

So there...

I think that's all for now. It's getting late and I need rest.

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J A H Z