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Time has passed and yet i havent figured out why my life works out the way it does. There has been so many times to where i should have died. I am thankful that i am living today. In the past i grew up around so much voilence and it has crupted me to think differently than most people. My eyes are always wide open watching for a untrusty person to come towards me. But now i realize even after all the time that i thought i have forgiven my past and come to some ground i know now that i haven't. I am still a victim inside hurting..in pain. I got so much anger inside of me..so much hatrid. One person destroyed me and that same person destroyed the one's i love. How does one escape? How does one move on? Even after seeing many theripists..even after talking so much about it i feel like i will never move on. Maybe i'm not supposed to? But how will i ever be happy intill that person that destoryed our lifes is gone and burried?! I never wish ill of someone because i am a caring person and i don't like violence. I hate violence with a passion. But that is how much hatrid i have for this person. I know i won't do anything physically about it but i feel as though i should do something. Because after all these years we didn't see this person and we made clear we wanted nothing to do with them they just pop out of no where in my city. What am i supposed to do be a sitting duck?!!
