bmxer's blog: "Been on here, 11 Year's now."

Hey there friend's,

 hard to think, I been on here 11 year's now.. I been total single since 2006 now. Been year's since I have done a up to date blog.

I never thought, I'd been in Texas now since 92. I left and lost a lot back home, My mom died last year back in California,my real home,

she was in a bad nursing home, lost 1 brother 3 year's ago now, he was in a bad apartment fire, it claimed, my brother, his fiance, and thier best friend, in Lubbock, Texas.

I have got into Bodybuilding, and arm wrestling to keep my mind off thing's being a manager for Dairy Queen is hard enough..

My aunt in Apple Valley, California, up near Vegas, she has thyroid cancer, it tears me up sooo real badd, that I am in Texas and I am loosing my family back home,

I am from the bay area of California, born in Torrance grew up in Lawndale, So many time's now, I wish I could go back in time, start all over again, fix and make thing's right for what I done wrong, start life right all over again,

My child hood was rough with my parents, but thing's happen, I turned out to be a good guy,

Texas is not my real home, California is, and always will be.....

I cry a lot at night's because so much has happened so fast in my life, I am lost...Really I am.

11 year's has been hard on me,,, But being here in Texas since 92, is even harder then I have ever tought I'd go thru in my life......

 Til my next blog.. Jay