I thought once it was over I would be able be free
To feel the hours , minutes and seconds and truly see
Here I am in the moment of moving beyond the past
No more lies , nor do I have to fake a orgasmic blast
I didn’t realize how much of myself was given
Or the fact that I that I wasted precious liven
As I am reminded with glimmers that flash
And no way can I ever do that same dash
The scar of the heart taint my day and night
Even though I know she wasn’t right
So ready was I to be in love that I was taken
A fool in love but a heart forsaken
Where I stood before was in a mesh of unknown truths
Now I kneel in hours of mishaps struggling to find what soothes
Though I am grateful for one thing after all
Cause my daughter makes my heart sing even thru this free fall