I think I figured out why I hate this season so much.
I see and hear about all my friends and the likes having a great, wonderful time with their families. It makes me think about the family that I have, and how screwed up it is.
Before she moved the NE, my mom could barely afford rent because of her meth addiction... They came to visit the weekend after Thanksgiving, and we were supposed to have a belated Thanksgiving/my Birthday dinner, and what happens, my mom and step-dad get thrown in jail.
I guess, what I'm feeling, is that, I see Christmas as a family holiday, but, I don't really have a family, or at least not one that acts like it, and it makes me angry and depressed.
I really just needed somewhere to vent.
