Why is it when you feel something going right.. some else will come in and destroy that...its like you feel you going no where in life.. cause as you try advance or move on there always something draggin you back... I feel like this today.. I got my license I get my kids for week ends to sleep over which make me feel so good. I love my kids to death... now it seems that everything going good and all.. but now my van is falling apart.. I gotta find money to get it fix so I can start to look for work. And the town i live in sucks so much ass that there is barely any work.. so soon my income will be shot cause I will be off unemployment.. and no work to make money.. Like my life just keeps getting fucked up.. I just runnin out of ideas on what too do.. I am at the point I am debating on joinin the army... and push everyone away form me so they don't get my bad luck streak.. but I would be destroyed cause I would be away from my kids. I am just so lost I don't know what to do.. I am thinking God hates me and just punishin me for all the bad shit I do to hurt so many people. I think I just need to push everyone away just so I can't hurt no more...
This is my babble for the day..
