So I did a lil thinkin; when I first got on here I made my profile so privet a lot of people didnt even know I was real. Talkin with some friends, I have relised there is no need for it. I know he wont bother me, and I sure in the hrll aint going to bother him. I wish him the best of luck with his wife, and hope they grow old and happy together. I know I loved him truly once, and I see that he didnt love me the same; but its ok. I have the one I am supose to be with, and we are more then happy together. I have the most perfect life I could ever ask for, and I have everything I want, need, and for that matter desire, We are a dam stronge family; and my wonderful sons father and Red are really good friends. My son loves him so much, and we ave built our home from scratch. Everythinh that we have, him and I have worked for; down to the bills and house payments. My son has everything from name brand shoes and cloths, to name brand toys, video games, and video game systems. All because he his Me, His Father, And Red. D and I are finally close again and have been for the hole time Red and I have been together. D see's how much I have changed and how hard I work to have what I do. Red does so much for me, I never ask of him, nor for any of it; he just does it. When I ask him why, all he can tell me is because he loves me so. The greatest thing he has ever done, when ever I am in one of my moods he smiles and tells me thats when he loves me most. He dosnt spoil me in miteral things, { thank God, 'cause I aint the typical female who likes crap like that } he does it with love and affection. In public I am his porclin doll; apon a gless peddal stool I do sit. He gaurds me with his life, never allowing the world to touch me. Do you know how much that drives me wild? OMG!! Dont get me started on the sex; I am one who needs to see, taste, feel, the pain, the blood...if I dont, I dont get off. He is the same way...Perfect. When I am on the net, he knows I flirt, but he also knows that I wont do anything. I will not UNDER ANY CERCUMSTANCES give p what I have. FOR NO ONE. My life is PERFECT. He is PERFECT. He makes more money in one week, then most of us do in a month. He payed for me to go to Nursing school, and for my liecne, for my house, and my car. I never asked, nor hinted at it. He just did it. I love him and get the same feelings in my body, just like I did the day we finally got together. He still makes my heart skip a beat when he kisses me, he still gives my belly butterfly's when he touchs me; and when he is away I can still smell him on my skin. I know I love him and I know that this is real love; nothing like ever before. I never feel shy; boxed up; like I have to lie about what I am doing, where I am going, who I am talking to; there is full trust and communication { on both parts }, and to make it even better, his family loves me to death. My family thanks God everyday and has since we got together. I do myself. And I will everyday, even if we split, he will be the on I will regreat loosing. So Yeah this is long enough so I am gonna bounce,to the ones I love be safe and I am always here for you; to the ones I dont speak to, CHOKE ON A PUBIC HAIR. Night = )
