Too2Sweet's blog: "Angry 1.2.9"

    

1.
Your evil attempts at annihilating my heart will not work.
The hard years have made me resilient, and hardened me in places that prevent your coldness from entering.
But I am prepared for you spells, and I am ready for your witchery.
You will not own me as you did before, you will not be my puppet master.
Those days of you entering my life and having your way are gone, and never to be seen again.
One brick today, then another one tomorrow, my wall begins.
Those days of you controlling me, those deceitful days are dead.
©081506
2.
My head still spins.
My body still trembles.
My emotions are a wreck.
I love you with every fiber within me, and yet I despise you.
My knees weaken, my heart races, my palms sweating, and thats only at the thought of you.
My blood boils, my temperature rises, and the cold sweat starts, all at the sight of you.
Sadness arises, misery begins, the torture initiates, the pain has returned and all because you walked away.
You made me this way, you created all this, you are the architect that has constructed the desolation that I am.
You acted as an unmerciful GOD and took this shell and made your own puppet of chaotic emotions.
One brick today, then another one tomorrow, my wall begins.
Those days of you controlling me, those deceitful days are dead.
©081706
3.
As I start building my wall, you strategically react in ways that make me halt my process.
You are a mastermind when it comes to toying with my heart.
You are a puppet master with no remorse.
Stringing me along for your amusement.
Pulling me left as I go right, bringing me down as I try to go up.
Controlling me in ways that only a sovereign can.
Your memory still dominates me. To deem your love dictates my fate.
One brick today, then another one tomorrow, my wall begins.
Those days of you controlling me, those deceitful days are dead.
©082406
4.
I wake in a cold sweat.
My body is as hot as a furnace, but I tremble with chills.
Am I sick? Am I dieing?
Is this an addiction? Is this an obsession?
What ever it is I must prevail, I must win!
I forgot you for one minute but now a minute has not passed with out in my head.
My body trembles, my pulse races, what have you done to me?
I am boiling from the heat, I am sweating profusely and my speech has started to slur.
Why have you possessed me in this way?
What evil witchery have you hexed me with?
If you loved me once then don't kill me in such a slow manner.
Deliver your fatal blow, and end this torture.
I can feel my soul tearing as I attempt to climb out of this abyss.
The walls have crumbled, but yet I live to start again.
One brick today, then another one tomorrow, my wall begins again.
Those days of you controlling me, those deceitful days are dead.
©092906

To be continued…………