kay, alot on my mind lately, working on organizing all the thoughts and stories of all the shit thats happened the last few years, mainly with guys, i plan on writing a nice long blog sometime before the end of the week probally on my day off (monday) but i'm not sure, im almost thinking id like to do a video rant instead, though i may come across kinda shy or stupid looking and may not get all of what i wanna say in because i'll get focused on a certain anger point, seems like i get screwd over by alot of men, though i gotta say others were less heartache because though i wanted to belive them after awhile i find out there lies or its too overwhelming whether they are or aren't but i didn't wanna stay and wonder for 2 of the guys but i ended up pushing most these guys outta my life, some of them still hurt me really bad though, scars are still there, still nothing in compared to recent because i didn't love those other guys so even though they hurt me alot it's not quite what i'm going through right now with my current lier , x, whatever, fred... makes me wanna cringe now, or scream, run around with a knife and start stabbing shit! i don't know, theres alot of shit *sigh* and if his ass would have told me like WAY sooner about his other chick i would have left be, sure i'd be sad but i wouldn't be seeking my vengence on him...
eh anyway
i hate work don't wanna go got 8 hours of hell peaking ound at me, just ate a home made pizza and am full almost to the point where i don't wanna move lol, oh well , be back in the morning
