Not Original enough to come up with a be...'s blog: "All Mine!"

I gave your time to him You bailed He was there You asked me “why?” You walked I talked I replaced you With quickness you didn’t think I had My game is tight You question my motives They were to love you I wanted nothing else You took a break Thinking I’d stand by Waiting Anticipating Holding my breath Till I died without you He swooped in Scooped me up You stood there Mouth dropped open Like you had never seen anything like it before You had my crazy I gave you who I am You took me for granted I walked before your words could lie You eyes died The day I said goodbye I can’t wait for nobody To show me I am somebody When they want anybody else I have to run away To hide my tears To heal my heart Mend my soul It’s all for him

My free had nothing to do with you I walked away Hands free Heart open Not knowing the next turn would bring me heat I let go of who I am Left it to God to decide my next step Deep breath in Blow it out I can find my way Back to who Back to what No map to the end result Real life is to much It’s to easy to call it It’s my choice You won’t know what hit you My heart ain’t big enough for the both of us I can’t hand it out the way you need it It’s not who I am The day is grim I lost my smile Left it behind when my soul crept out It flew with the wind Lost in the sound of nothing I’m duckin the world It’s to much on one plate I keep it to myself Shhhh….don’t tell nobody

I do what I do because I can You thought you were someone You ended to be nothing You ain't shit to me Just another bitch in the world of bitches I call you out you holla'd at ya homies told them all you couldn't tell me you found the error in your ways along the way you fucked up a potential friendship I didn't do shit because I am who I am you didn't tell her that did you? You let on to how you were feeling not what it is today, who we are you over-stepped like it was something more than it is do you feel dumb now? for ever and always there will be a riff between her and I you put your feelings into something that isn't yours you used your words as your weapons without thinking before you threw the first punch you lashed you checked yourself a day late a dollar short cuz baby you broke it any chance you and I had I walk you see your future in me blink once I'm out

My happiness has all to do with you No one can take credit where credit is not deserved I loved you the moment I told you I hated you I loved you the moment you leaned in and kissed me I loved you the moment you held me in your arms and I found my home I made my smile as big as the sun When I have a frown you quickly change it I love you for my giggles Our talks Hours alone laying side-by-side Getting to know The common things we have The stupid inside jokes Inside “knows” *Mutha Fuckkas* You know me so well With room to learn so much more You let me be who I am Leave room for so much improvement We’ve made plans for the future It brings a smile to my face I have a warm in my heart Because I know where you belong With me throughout all time It’ll last till the end We have critters We own an Ostrich and he eats tainted pizza And only we know what that means Life is wicked sick We are the dopest people we know Together we make fools jealous They want what we have Hate what we have Envy at every step We have haterz cuz we hot We have love because it’s who we are Together waking along Smiling Loving Till I write “void” where you no longer belong

I want you to hold me Like you mean to I want you to kiss me Like you have to I want you to love me Like it is in your heart to love me I need you to like me Like you mean to I need you to laugh at me Like you have to I need you to love me Like it is in your heart to love me I want you to ask me to marry you Because it’s what your soul wants you to do I want you to keep me forever Because it’s what your heart wants you to do I want you to love me Like it is in your heart to love me I need you to love me for always Because we deserve it I need you to want me As much as I need you Because it’s what our hearts want From each other

You don’t know me Call me a bitch But I ain’t yours I was never yours You didn’t stake a claim I was already claimed You lost out a lil to late Callin me out You ain’t nobody To anybody I holla’d at you My first error It’s all good For what pussy you ain’t getting I’m givin to another Go cry your tears Wish on a star I ain’t neva gonna be where you are You’re a loser I knew that from day two I put your ass on notice before you could say hi Walk your scrawny lil ass on Don’t hate what you can’t have Don’t hate the game you couldn’t hang in Love me for paying any attention to you That’s your luck You’re just a fuckin punk Deal with the deal It is what it is Write the words down Scream’em in a mic Rewind, press play You ain’t gonna ever get your air time!

I’m remembering myself I closed my eyes to see who I am I’m nothing like you In a blink I saw me 20 yrs from now I saw you I closed my eyes tight I shook that thought out I am who I am No different from day one We’ve always been miles apart You don’t know me You never had the chance The door closed on my way out You turned cold Lost in your pitty Weak with sadness I won’t be you I stopped it before I could crumble My happy is in me I decide who will see it I’m sorry you will miss out Close your eyes Picture it different Keep them closed Hold the moment Reality is It’s all gone in the blink of the eye

I sat and watched the sunset My happiness wept You walked away Nothing new to me You picked him It’s your life What you live for The love of a man You lost yourself so long ago It’s just alright My tears will dry I won’t cry My smile will fill again But I’ll never be your daughter again Your back is so far off I see you so close It’s a feeling I had before My life will be fine Don’t you mind You raised me to who I am Strong and in need of no man I walk alone No father or mother to call my own I have me for me now Who knew pain would resolve You can’t have my pride You can’t have my hate You don’t deserve my smiles You turned your back I turned mine too We were one Now we walk as two

The last breath I’ll ever take It’s all mine I made it here All on my own You had no hand in who I am I rose above I lost my hate I never loved you I inhale It’s the last breath I’ll ever take I’ll keep it for me My last selfish deed I stand on my own I don’t need you, anyone No one will be waiting I blow it out This is the last breath I’ll ever take I say good-bye I’m not coming back You stay there Keep your tears for yourself You have none for me I’m so much stronger than you ever were I followed through There goes the last breath I’ll ever take

I’ll never forget I pushed all of it so deep into my memory Throughout time I stashed it away in my mind I spent my life waiting for you I lied to myself when I said I was happy The words weren’t enough The tears drowned me out The yells fell on deaf ears The screams were never yours Every last memory Stashed till the end of time