Not Original enough to come up with a be...'s blog: "All Mine!"

I’m sorry I love you so much it hurts to breath. I’m sorry I love you so much I named you my Sunshine. I’m sorry that I fall asleep in your arms every night, wishing I could Just stay there forever. I’m sorry that my forever is for now and I can’t explain that to you. I’m sorry you would give me the world, and try and I leave the door ajar. I’m sorry that you have to deal with all my quirks and annoyances. I’m sorry you think everything I do is so damn cute. I’m sorry that when you text me I text you back, quick like a bunny. I’m sorry you see my eyes light up with excitement when I hear a wind chime, chime. I’m sorry you can hug me and wish you never had to let go. I’m sorry I ma an attention whore and love every touch you give me. I’m sorry that I am smart and we have wonderful conversations. I’m sorry that when we are at Walmart we seem like we are married. I’m sorry that from the outside looking in we are the perfect couple. I’m sorry that I can look at you and lose my breath with one glimpse. I’m sorry your hand in my hand makes me smile for days. I’m sorry I can close my eyes and picture you right here with me. I’m sorry that I think a man working on his truck, getting all sweaty and dirty is so HOTT! I’m sorry that I wish every weekend never ended. Most of all, my love, I am sorry I didn’t meet you first! But, I’m so glad I have you now, and for that I will never be sorry!

He looked into my eyes Tears in his eyes To tell me his truths He wanted me there With him always My caution was my lie I held on to my questions All for me None with an answer Why’d I do that? He looked into my eyes Offered me his forever No questions asked I found my forever in his eyes My caution said be patient I held onto my questions All for me None with an answer Why’d I do that? He looked into my eyes Told me he loved me Told me “Forever, forever” I held my response My caution was my breath I held it for myself I couldn’t let go I held onto my questions All for me None with an answer Why’d I do that? He looked into my eyes Told me he’d give me everything All the smiles I could dream All the dreams I could have in one moment All the laughs I could handle The kind that make your tummy ache and your tears fall I smiled so big Gave him my words “I love you too, forever is what I say,” “You’ll be in my heart always,” “That’s where you belong,” “Thank you for this moment,” “I never thought I’d have one,” “Let me cry this cry,” “You can dry my eyes,” “I’ll let you,” “I’ll never question,” “I’ll always listen,” “I’ll be your squishy, you my sunshine,” “We’ll have days together,” “I swear they’ll be plenty,” “I don’t ever want to walk away,” “Have patience,” “I’ll give you all of my heart.” I looked into his eyes With no questions left My patience is no more My life is no regret I want what I have I won’t throw it away My heart is so filled I’ll never walk away This is my promise For you I give I’ll love you forever, forever

When I am holding his hand Don’t be sad that you didn’t wanna hold mine When you see him kiss me the way you want to kiss me Don’t be sad that you didn’t wanna kiss me that way When he is staring into my eyes Hearing what I say Listening with his heart Memorizing my words Don’t be sad when you hear the wind Blowing by your head Wishing it was my words Repeating to you what I said so many times before When he is hugging me so tightly Don’t be sad wishing it was you I was hugging back You had your chance A day late A dollar short The tab came and you lost out When his Orchids are white And his M&M’s are Peanut Butter And he stands knelt on one knee And he asks me the one Question he’ll surely get A yes from me Don’t be sad that you never thought to ask Don’t be sad I will love another Don’t be sad I will give my heart to the one That can take care of it Don’t be sad that I removed you before You could hurt me to much Don’t be sad that I guarded myself So that another could have all of me Don’t be sad your ship sailed While you were sitting there Waiting for someone better to come along Don’t be sad when he and I are grown old Walking in the park Smiling and laughing With memories of a lifetime While you sit on the bench Alone and wishing You could have taken your sad And made it your glad Your happy forever With me

I tried so hard to say goodbye I knocked and you didn’t hear Lucky for me I walked away Gave myself another minute to think Before I spoke For what I don’t want Is us apart You are my heart My reason for smiles My laughter We’ve had a minute together Hours to go If we make it past the current Our future could be big To have an our I have to check myself Though it is you and I I question My words mean nothing to you Written or spoken You hear none I tried so hard to say goodbye I knocked and you didn’t hear I walked away For good today Tomorrow will be new I may come back I may say goodbye

I got lost in the moment It was all a lie He looked me in the face And I wanted to cry I'm not the one he dreams of It's another he wants It's happened before I'm not the one he wants I can't cry about it Though I want to badly The tears well up But my heart says he doesn't deserve them He gave me smiles All awhile I was in denial Because he was so sweet He compared And contrasted Mixed his words to be Inspiration It showed clearly I wasn't what he expected He thought it was helpful And all it did was hurt I think I misspoke and said all the wrong words I may have overreacted Who would know? He's probably crying Because he doesn't know I picked him over the other Gave him my heart I was stupid From the start I should have been cautious I lived to free It was my mistake From go What to do now? I apologize for my words And hope he forgives Or walk away now So I don't get hurt

I can’t compete Why am I hear again I told you before she isn’t just your friend Your ex is so much Of your past and your future I don’t know how to handle it I try to stay strong When all along all I want to do is punch a wall You’re not worth my tears You’re not worth my pain I’d like to through the stupid ass cunt through a window pane You have no idea what you mean to me I walk around all day with a stupid smile on my face Who’da known it was my lie to myself You are a shady bitch You have no love for me I knew it from go The first time you said her name She is to much a part of you than I I can’t compete I’d rather die It kills me every minute to see her fucking face She is a nobody to me And an everybody to you She faked her walk away When all she did was go under cover She was afraid I took you away When all that happened was you Put her on the backburner to stay For now you told her She waits patiently For the day you come and tell her I walked away Today is the day I ain’t yours no more Maybe I never was It’s all just the past You’ll never know how good you had it Look back soon you’ll see who scooped me up He’s your rival You will hate Because you through away your fate On some dime as bitch You thought you could grow old with When you had no clue you was In a relationship with a Silva dollar bitch I’m priceless and you’ll know Have fun with that cunt She’ll show you She ain’t no one to anyone That’s why she is who she is On your coat tails waiting for the last bit Have my sloppy seconds That’s all you get I taught your man all the things he likes Bitch!

You can’t phase the girl I am You traded me in for a new one I walked because you lied I put my 50% in bad no blame on you We fucked up together Why can’t you walk away I ain’t yours anymore I won’t even be yours again You’re holding on to a nothing And fucking up my something He and I are stronger than you’ll ever believe He loves me for the girl I am And the chick you threw away You punched and kicked Yelled and screamed I sit and talk with my head in his lap He promises better days then the last ones We talk and walk holding hands He tells me he loves me Gives no thoughts to you You come in when you want something You can’t have me Because I don’t want you I didn’t want you back then I don’t want you now Walk away Close your eyes and remember You can’t phase the girl I am Because I have the man of my dreams Holding my hand

Fuck You show me how important I am to you HE knows me HE learns me HE finds my insides and sees me for who I am You show me how important I am to you You don’t know me You won’t learn me You will never find my insides and see me for who I am HE pays attention HE asks me questions HE reads my space HE feels my vibe You show me how important I am to you You ignore You don’t ask me shit You don’t read my space You don’t feel my vibe You show me how important I am to you That’s the way I feel about you You don’t know me You don’t want to know me Why the fuck do I care to know you Why the fuck to I invest my time into you Why do I want to be there knowing you You show me how important I am to you

You never know when you meet someone if she’ll be the one Am I your one that you will find my beauty on the inside Is what I have to offer enough for your smiles for your lifetime Did you look at me and wonder if I am the one Am I just the here and now The disposable one that you can kiss and walk away from You never know when you kiss someone if she’ll be the one Did you ask yourself if our kiss made the difference The difference between the before and the now Do you see my truths in my eyes when I tell you I love you Do you feel my body shake when you touch me My anticipation of our us my want for our we On the inside I am wound up Lost in the dreams of tomorrow Wondering if my today is enough to get me there

I can’t compete with your past She is to much of your future I am not enough Our happy is her jealous I see it in her eyes I hear it in her voice I can’t compete with your past She wants your future I can’t give you what she can give you I see it in your eyes I hear it in your voice I can’t compete with your past She has your memories She has your heart If she didn’t you’d walk away I see it when you look at her I hear it when you say her name Your smile lights with her delight I can’t compete with your past I’m internally dieing I don’t wanna be the other one anymore My heart can’t break anymore I put my all in and got nothing in return My lesson is learned I wasted my time I tried I can’t compete with your past She has your heart