1 fan of the Redskins's blog: "all me, all the time"

Ive ment to do this for a long time, I put up a playlist on my homepage. Gotta keep the masses entertained. Thats all for the moment, enjoy if you get the chance to drop by.

My job search has seemed to fizzle out somewhat. But Friday of last week, was the start of something else. I talked to my boss, and weve had a few good positive conversations about work. For one, she was never mad at me, but was mad at someone else. Were also working on a way to keep my job, and work around a scheduale to allow me to go to school. I dont know what else is going to come of it, or if im going to go any further for now at finding another job. Id say a good half of the reasons I was going to quit are now gone, but the other half is still there. All this, from a few conversations, and at least a few others to come. Kind of amazing to me what can be accomplished.

It seemed like a great idea at first. Get a pay raise, and leave all the bad stuff that had been happening at Food Lion. So, talking to my current boss, I decided yes, I would give it a go. After two weeks I began my new job. Basically janitor at Mc Donalds. After months with the company it has become apparant, that no, it wasnt as great an idea as I had thought. No offense, but when you get a large group of women in the same place, theres alot of talking that goes on. Never good. As much as I have to do, 9 an hour is not enough, and 8 hours a day is never enough time to do it all. I hate my job, and I hate always feeling like I get taken advantage of. Its about time that I once again, move on. Work dosent suck, Mc Donalds does!

Three years have passed, three long years. Many things have changed over that time. Ive moved several times, made and lost many friends, went to college, bought cars. Ive also bounced around relationships, for better or worse. Loved and lost, and all in that time, ive had to find my way alone. Struggling to make sense of everything, fighting with myself over who to blame, trying to come up with the words I could tell my ex fiancee. In those three years, weve stopped talking, had our first fight, and went our seperate ways. We loved and lost, but of all we lost, mostly each other. Though we have never reconciliated with each other, it is safe to say, weve moved on and away from each other. Ive had to find my own way to deal with not haveing my ex around. If I could speak to her, one last conversation, I would say how much I still love her, and say just how sorry I am, for all the mistakes I made. Also, I would tell her how sorry I was for blaming her for everything, how much I miss her. I dont know what else I would say, but I know, this would be a start, at a true reconciliation. At least for me.