sinner2saint's blog: "ain't life a bitch"

when I sharpen my flashing sword and my hand grasps it in judgement I will take vengence upon my adversaries and repay those who hate me I will make my arrows drunk with blood while my sword devours flesh the blood of the slain and the captives the heads of the enemy leaders rejoice nations with his people for he will avenge the blood of his servants he will take vengence on his enemies and make atonement for all his land and people deuteronomy 32:34

now I'm wondering if anyone else out there feels this way I'm single n have been for a few months I don't do the bar scene anymore because as some know I raise a child by myself it seems to be hard to meet the right people everyone seems to be a junky or married n still after me it's a little frustrating at times I don't mind being single sometimes seems to be less drama but sometimes ur more lonely tryin to do the right thing n it seems like most of the people online are only caught up in the fantasy world n have no real world intentions it gets a lil old sometimes all I ask for is honesty n honor n to appreciate when someone goes out of their way for u but that seems to be a tall order it just seems ironic to me that I probably have about 800 or so ladies on my friends list and am havin this issue lol wtf

damn it I said right on my profile I hate fake people n liars so why is it that retards who pretend to be who they aren't while online always want to hit me up n try to bullshit me if u dislike who u are enough to pretend to be someone else change yourself I really don't want to hear from anyone that lies so much they start to believe it themselves.It's hard enough to sort the good from the bad so if ur full of shit get off my list please.I don't think I'm better than anyone but I'm me and I accept that ,everyone else on my friends list I must've seen somethin I liked so hit me up I'm not normally as mean as my blogs make me seem but somethings just get on my nerves luv the rest of u that r real

no more fakes surrounded by people but always stand alone no common bond in sight as I peer through the ignorance of man no fear in my heart lost in this sea of children without innocence pretending to be adults sporting head games acting important when they are truly empty inside thier true souls lost in a whirlwind of lies listening to a government that doesn't give a shit about them like lambs hanging on the words of the royal fools or maybe living their life however the brainwashing television tells them to you better wear this you better look like that or maybe it can let you know who your enemies are and who to hate what happened to free thought orriginality honesty morals backbone the ability to be your own person not having to fit in with a group like a 12 yr old people who need a label don't know who the fuck they are. IS THERE ANYONE REAL OUT THERE

once upon a time There was a time you were my heart A time when nothing else mattered A time fate pulled us apart A time my whole world shattered A time our souls lost touch A time our hatred grew A time I loved you so much A time I was glad to be through A time I still longed for love A time love had long gone A time tears poured from above A time no time was left we moved on.

pain It can make you feel helpless ,or more powerful than another It can make you wish for death,or let you know you're still alive It can let you know you're really in love,or make you realize lost it It comes more with doing the right thing ,it is easy to use for wrong a curse ,a blessing, a teacher,an alarm ,an emotion pain

ain't life a bitch who says what we want we don't even know, most of us search for what we assume will be happiness until we find it and realize we are hurting more than ever before ,we all seek salvation most of us seek it in love but you aren't truly in love until you feel less confident than normal since that person is now the most beautiful person in the world and everyone else must want to take that from you, sadly we normally strive to be miserable at some point like this it's strange but true it's our nature I guess I am just as guilty as the next we all reach for it until we have it in our grasp then most of us let our minds and emotions destroy it until we forget how bad it hurt again and try to seek something new none of us can really understand why ,and who says god doesn't have a twisted sense of humor ;)