a similar speech was given to me when my term came up after watching half of my unit get killed over there and having it on my concious of the innocent lives i took there were too many what if's now i cannot get back in i filed for disability back in august just now getting the appointment to go to the va doctor for "their evaluation" then who knows. many nights i have lied awake wondering if life was worth living there have been many times that i wanted to end it with a single shot and say fuck it but im glad i didnt ive met some really wonderful people who have helped change me for the better i just wonder if i will ever get the old me back the one that use to be so happy furthermore on this subject i do gotta say the time i spent in was the best years of my life until i started loosing those around me i had the one job in the army nobody wants you to do i was airborne infantry reason nobody wants us to do our job is people die. there is nothing that can describe shooting a little girl in the neck because she picked up an rpg this will haunt me the rest of my life this girl couldnt have been but 8 or 9 years old. then to boot they give you a run around on the va claims. in my mind i should have died over there now the one question and reason i posted this video is what do i do now? sure there are those who i talk and confide in some more than others,,, matt dawn submiziv you guys have helped alot lately through these dark times it is appreciated ive seen many signs that say half my heart is in iraq i wish i could find one that said half my heart died in iraq the damn deception is something else i tell ya .... sephiroth aka jason
