Have you ever waited so long on something and when you get it, it is exactly what you wanted? But once you get it, you want it again. You are addicted. Something about the smell, the touch, the texture just drives you wild and you want more. But you only discover that it doesn't want you, not the way that you want it. It doesn't want at all, especially you. The smell, the touch, the texture means nothing to it. But you don't care, you are addicted, you would do anything for the smell, the touch, the texture. Then you just realize, you have started the whole process over again. Except this time there are more feelings. Feelings that can't be supressed this time. Feelings of things that you have never felt before. Something in you says, "just stay away", but all you want it just "one more time". And you hope that it is different this time and that it wants you like you want it. But deep inside you already know, it isn't going to change. And yet, another day passes that you hope it comes back with different intentions, just maybe "one more time".
