It's been forever since I've been here. There still isn't a day which you don't cross my mind. And I stopped coming around because realities finally set in, you're dead. You're not coming back, and there's nothing I can do to bring you back. Things aren't the same as they used to, and no one else compares to you. I'm not mad at you anymore, if that says anything. I hope you're happy wherever you are in the crazy afterlife.
6.07.1981 - 7.12.10 Tony, I hope you found the peace you were looking for. They told Hailey you went to heaven, she cried when they said she wouldn't be able to talk to you anymore. I hope one day she'll understand. Wherever you are in this world, I hope you're happy. Rest in Peace...
It's been two years, and it still feels like yesterday when I got the news. Oh, how I wish I could have saved you. When we talked in April and you told me that you had attempted, I didn't think you'd try again in July and succeed. It still hurts so bad, and I don't think I will ever stop missing you. Your birthday was last month, you'd have been 31 years old. Hailey is 7 now, and she's looking more and more like you everyday. Your grandmother had a cancer scare, Amber keeps me updated. I wish you were here to see how different things are now. How much things have changed... I called Vanessa last year when I was driving through Tawas, I acted like I didn't know you were gone, and I hoped it was all a joke and she'd hand the phone to you. God, I wish she would have handed you the phone. I still feel like this is some sick joke, and one day you're going to turn up and make us all hate you (no more than most do now). Frank passed away last year, his heart transplant failed.. It feels like our circle of friends keeps disappearing. Mandy and Hank are still around, but it's not the same with you and Frank being gone. No one talks anymore. I miss you so much, Tony. And despite how angry I am at you, I love you just as much as I did the day I met you. Wherever you are, I hope you're happy.
Tony, Tony, Tony... I know I haven't been here for eight months, but by no means are you lost to me. I miss you, and I love you more and more. It's been 715 since you took yourself from me, and I've still not forgave you. Gosh, you're an asshole. I need you here...
I've been thinking about you a lot lately.I miss you more than words can say.I checked your facebook the other day, expecting to see something new.I wish this were all a dream. Or a lie. Dammit, I need to wake up.Rest in peace, wherever you are.
Time passes by so quickly, but I guess I thought you'd be here forever. I never even had the chance, to say goodbye. There's so many things to tell you, left unsaid until now. Can you hear me when I talk to you? Do the words I say ever make it through? Can you hear me when I talk to you? 'Cause I'd give anything if I just knew.4 months... and it feels like forever. I wish I could hear your voice just one more time.... Oh what I would give to hear you tell me to smile, and laugh.
It only hurts when I cry; I only cry sometimes.... When it rains, when the sun shines. Or like when I'm awake, sometimes when I dream. It only hurts when I cry. Don't you worry about me.2 months.... I hate counting.
6.07.1981 - 7.12.10 
