i sit here thinking of you as the candle burns out. you missed dinner again and i am once again left here sitting thinking is it me that pushes you away and makes you not want to come home to me? you use to love to come home and kiss me as i greated you at the door. i would ask you how your day was and we would sit and talk till it was all better. but now the bottle at the bar is what hears your probs as i sit here thinking that i have became one. the thoughts of you running to anothers arms dance around in my mind and that fear of you leaving me is rising again . the tears take over and i pray to god that you give me a second chance. our life is decaying right from under us and i dont want to believe what is happening. is there someone else where i belong in your heart? you said you would never let me go but it is you that seems to be doing the running. since i was a child i have dreamed of being with someone like you. just like a fairytale i read over and over throu out my life. but it seems that the happiness is all in the yesterdays and now all that i see is the emptiness in your eyes as we kiss. what do i do or what am i to say to bring back that love in our life that seemed to fall away so easy? it seems forever since your hugs had any warmth in them. where do i turn for answers? where.......?
