This has been a very very long week. I think I have processed almost all of the emotions I know. If not I don't want to go there. I have felt hurt, lost, confusion, pain, happiness, love, laughter and very deep depression.
One of the things I learned from all of this is that i can and will survive most htings that are throwm at me.
My mom is slowly, well maybe not so slowly getting worse by the day. This is my big fear. She is not supposed to be this bad at her age. Who says?..me of course.
My friends in the f2f world are rapidly abandoning me. Why I have no idea other than the stuff I am going through scares them. If so jezz what asses and wimps. No matter what the reasoning is they are still assess and wimps for not having the balls to tell me what's up.
Even those I love are sending me mixed messages most days. I wonder if their memories are as bad as mine and my mom's. All of the yeah I'll give you a call later and I will do this and that for you are not followed up on. My expectations may be a bit much for the rest of the world.
I am getting ready to go to an event that will help me change my life in a more positive way. To that I am looking forward. It will be Saturday the 15th. That is also my Granddaughters sweet 16 birthday. What a Karmic shot. I think there is a reason for everything and this one must have a great reason for me. I don't need to know what it is just accept that it is and go with the feeling.
Blessed Be
