BratAzz's blog: "A Part Of Me"

One chance to live One chance to die One chance to share One chance to cry One chance to dance One chance to fly Above the clouds And through the stars To find our place In our true love's arms Dont lose that chance Dont question why Just follow your dreams To a place and time A place where flowers fill the fields A place where rainbows fill the sky To find this chance that we all seek We must look beyond what we see We must reach deep into our soul To find a love that is lined with gold To love another you must love yourself So take the time to find that love To unleash your joys on wings of doves To laugh and cry To share your heart Look first within your very soul Without that love You can never be whole

A gentle breeze and a sunkissed sky I sit and think wondering why Holding your memories close to my heart Wishing we were not so far apart You have become a part of me In your heart and arms is where I want to be I long to feel your tender embrace I dream of waking to see your face The distance that keeps us apart Is only physical but not in our hearts Wanting to hold you as day turns to night Knowing to follow our hearts is what is right Praying our future holds all that we feel Knowing in time it can all be real May 14,2002

Please don't say you love me I have heard those words before Those words have lost their meaning Just caring says much more I am not looking for a lover I would rather have a friend Being friends is a place to start Because true friendship never ends If in time it becomes much more It was really meant to be But if in time we are still just friends We will be happy you will see

True love finds us but once Finding us in unexpected places In unexpected ways Having a true love means Sharing even the hardest of things Knowing that the bond of love will carry you thru Even the worst of times Having a strength behind you That never waivers A flame that never fades; that only burns brighter When you have that kind of love Only then will you know that the truest love of all is the love you have to give A love that never questions A love that never dies

Mind over matter They say thats all it takes Can get past anything Mind over matter... Reliving the tortured past Every crushing blow Every salty tear Knowing that every step away from it Only takes me one step closer To an unknown future Not knowing where safety lies Does it lie in the haunting dreams of what was or Is it in the fantasy of what could be

Like a frightened child I trembled inside Not knowing what to expect Not knowing what I would find With every breath The fear grew The undeniable feeling That danger was lurking in every shadow Would arrive on every breeze My senses alert, my mind racing All the questions None with answers The fear of the dismal past The terror of the unknown future What will it bring Will it be nothing more than the past re lived The pain and hurt brought back to the surface The numbing past never far from my mind Always there Always reminding me of a pain that never dies

They say the eyes are the window to the soul Look into my eyes Can you see the pain The dull lonely ache The lonely emptiness begging to be filled Look deeper Look beyond the pain Can you see the shattered remnants of my heart Waiting Waiting to be made whole again Can you see the anger The black mass slowly eating away at my inner being An anger that needs to be released Let go Left to slowly fade away If you look into my eyes and This is what you see Then and only then can you truly love me

When I first Joined LC, I had posted some of my own writing on my page and over time, i decided that it was best not shared with everyone because some chose to criticize ...For that reason I removed all of my writing. Tonight I received a message from someone that has been with me here in LC from the very beginning that asked if I would again post some of those poems so i decided here away from the general eye would be a good place to put them...Hope that you enjoy them. Feel free to comment even constructive criticism is welcome. But please remember that each of these is a part of me...Happy Reading