My thought for today
This morning I woke up to a VM from my mom apologizing for forgetting my bday AND that my "dad's" funeral was on my bday..... WTF? She didn't even tell me he DIED! I guess she said she sent it in a text, but for one WHO SENDS NEWS OF A DEATH OVER TEXT!! She should've call me...... :(
Anyways, so his funeral was yesterday and I missed it.... I could've been there too. I don't know what worse, the fact I didn't know or the fact that if I did know, I could've.... no... SHOULD'VE been there.
I hadn't seen him in a while... you never know when people are going to go. Everbody always thinks about time as infinite. Then somebody dies. You rethink everything, and realize that it's not. But everybody knows that thought doesn't last forever... after a few weeks or months you go back into the same thought of infinite time........
He wasn't ready yet. I know people think he is in a better place, but he wasn't an unhappy person. Not around me at least. He was always trying to make me laugh and make sure I was doing okay. I missed him so much and now I'm gonna miss him forever.
Tomorrow is his memorial and I am not going to work at 5 n Diner so I can go. I know I just started but it's bad enough I missed his funeral.
I don't know what else to say. I miss my Ray......
=(
*In Memory of Ray Graham*
Nicole's mom just told me "Born Into Eternal Life"
In so many ways is that true.
I love you and will miss you dearly Daddy Ray
~Lish~
