Comatosed FuEngaged to Angel Eyes's blog: "DESTRUCTION"

I think about the past. about all the good shit I have destroyed, and the little things I have left. wondering when I will finally be able to say that I am over you. I look at all the things we have been through in the past 4 years. our lives have changed in a horrible way, with the both of us losing a sister, and having to be the strong ones. I remember the past like it was yesterday, every memory with you and how I still dream of a chance to see my sister one more time. I know that dream we probably share. I have done so much to try to get over you and I cant seem to get that sparkle out of my head. the sparkle that once brought me happiness and now im holding on to the pain. we have cried so many tears its unreal. in the past year and a half I have tried twice to escape from the grasp your feelings have on my but I cant for some reason. your in my head, my thoughts, my dreams, and even my nightmares when I die. I messed up my past by thinking I can actually stop loving you. i have hurt two girls that didnt deserve my pain that i put on them. ill never forget the night when my world stood still for the first time. when I looked into your eyes and knew it was the beginning of a lifetime of a one sided love. I left a broken home to try to get over you and i lost everything. i made a mistake when i finally realized it was to late. its been four years, but to my heart. its been so much longer.. you know who you are and if you dont know what sparkle im talking about then its obviously not you... i still bleed for you...