HEARTACHE
I am waiting
on somethings
I am sure will never come
Still debating
endless issues
I’m not sure where they’re from
Painfully I hold on
to the darkness in my chest
I have no way to let go
There’s nothing I want less
I am lost in
this depression
clawing for a breath
I flounder
feeling listless
til there’s almost nothing left
With everything I’m grasping
My anguish still resides
in all the darkened places
that you have left behind
GRASPING
Lost
and I am out of time
I found no foothold
to keep me from tripping the line
Pain
I find wrapped around my heart
dark and wasted
I release what I hold inside
UNCARING
I weep
My strength has let me down
I lay upon the earth
and cease to make a sound.
The only part that’s left of me
lays deep within the ground.
I tried
but nothing came of it.
I lifted you up into my arms
and held you through your fits
and now the love I had for you
is blowing in the wind.
My heart ceases to care
LEAVE ME
Don’t call me cute
I am not in the mood
sullen
disparaged
dragged out
I live, I brood
I am not just set up
to consume all your crap
misgivings
affairs
pulled taught
soon to snap
I shaved my head to spite you
and still you beg for me to stay
wanting
desperate
he left
I leave the same way
I AM NO FOOL
What must I do?
Can I get through to you?
Your breaking me.
And what you make of me,
It lies broken and fooled.
I don’t play the joker.
I am not a man who likes guilt.
I did not drive you to it.
I know you think of him still.
I’ve been talking to walls,
and yeilded better results
than any speech with you.
Which you claim is my fault.
Don’t be condecending.
Don’t claim absent love.
For it was your love in absence.
Your not longer my drug.
