Ok, so earlier I was here talking to some people when my phone rang. It was a good friend of mine who runs a local coffee shop that does poetry slams on saturdays. So anyways today was the "erotica" slam, and the person that she had lined up to read backed out on her saying that they had "found god". And she wanted to know if I could drop everything and come and perform. Now because of someone on here who encouraged me to start writing again, and share them. I told her yep be right there. So i made arrangements for my son to see his grandmother and blasted out to the shop. Once there I was please and scared to find that it was full of people waiting for the slam. a couple of people that I had never heard before did some short reads then my friend intro'ed me. I stepped up to the mic and turned it off. My voice carries and I didn't need the cops called when i started moaning or talking about sex. Everyone got super quiet as I started. I read for about 15 mins before I really started to get into some of my new and heavier work. That is when I first noticed her. She was sitting at a table with 3 other females all of the college age. I really wasn't looking at anyone in particular. But when she lifted her skirt to flash me that she was not wearing any panties AND had a vibrator sliding in and out of her that she became my muse for the hour. So I went and went and went. I spewed words from my brain that I didn't even know had been formulated into a thought. When I finally ended, I realized that I hadn't even touched the glass of jack and coke that had been placed on the stool for me. I left the stage to some minor applause, i really didn't care. I went to tell my friend that I was glad that she had called me and that I wouldn't be doing the midnight reading tonight. As I walked out the front door and lit a smoke,(yes I smoke after sex even if it is mental sex) the muse walked up to me and said "you know if you lost about 30 pounds I would fuck you" and walked away. Thus reconfirming why I don't do reads anymore, and why it is hard for me to publish pics and my writing in the same arena