I smile when I want to scream. I'm a loner. The more you try to figure me out, the harder it becomes. I'm not really social - mostly a recluse - but i am prone to the occasional social binge. 90% of the time, however, I keep to myself. Quite simply, don't feel bad if i don't have much to say. It's not a personal thing. It's a hermit thing. I'm a strange girl with a strange sense of humor. I have many faces, and don't commit myself to any specific clothing style, hair color, or musical genre. I can be quite difficult to get close to at times..and i may not be 'pretty enough' for some, but to me, pretty doesn't really matter. I'm intelligent, spunky, and i don't have to take my clothes off to make people like me. I've seen the worst the world has to offer and now I am enjoying the spoils of living. I've had to fight for everything I have ever done, nothing has ever been handed to me and I'm not afraid to make enemies of those that don't want to see me accomplish my goals. I guess I am a quiet, passive, calm, easygoing, accepting person. I try to be optimistic as much as possible. I am not "dark" or "depressed" nor am i a "freak" who "hates people" and i am not into "dark things" or "satan". Somewhere down the path of life, I stopped being the girl I used to be. She kinda clammed up inside of me. I miss being her. Also, I'm too shy to meet new people, or maybe it's social anxiety disorder? Which ever one makes your tummy flutter and hurt and your mouth not able to speak....