July 2 2007
Kaleb is still doing well.
The first day after surgery he was wide awake and moving a whole bunch. But now he seems to be sleepy again. Josh and I seem to think it is a result of the Phenobarbital they have him on. This is a VERY Strong anti seizure medication. It slows EVERYTHING WAY DOWN. Other tahn that though he is very stable. He is no longer on a ventilator and is breathing great on his own. If he keeps this up, hopefully we will be going home soon. I can't wait until he is home. I have been able to hold him more lately. Yesterday when I was holding him he made a baby noise. I got so excited. There is not much more news as of right now. I am just praying that he doesn't get some kind of infection from the surgery.
A lot of people are ridiculing me because I seem too "happy" and that I look "cold" in pictures because I am smiling. I AM happy. I am happy to see my little boy making progress. I am happy because I fully rely on God to make everything right. I am not happy this happened to Kaleb. Most of you who say these things have NO IDEA what it is like to walk a DAY in Josh and I's shoes. We, together are trying to get through this the best we can. We trust in God. He knows what happened. He didn't do this to Kaleb, but he let it happen for a reason and I TRUST that he will make good come from this evil. Kaleb has a purpose. He WILL be something big.
Just so everyone knows, the "FACTS" of this case are NOT out. What you read in the newspapers and hear on the TV are NOT FACTS. We wish that we could tell you everything we know... but we can't. We have been instructed not to talk to the media. In do time everyone will know. Just trust that Law Enforcement did their job correctly and narrowed down the suspect accurately. Just know that I pray for the person who was charged for the crime daily and I ask that you too pray for her family.
Thank you again for all of your prayers and kind words. Whenever we get sad we look at the letters and cards and it brightens our day. I ask you to continue to pray for Kaleb. Also there was another baby shaken named Evelynn, please keep her and her mommy in your prayers also. Going through this is like going througha nightmere set on repeat. Pray that she can rely on God because this is the only think that has kept me from completely losing it.
God is a loving God. We trust 100% on him.
