9/12/08
Hey everyone! I'm redoing my profile for the first time in ages. I'm tired of it being the same.

Just to let you know. All I have to give is myself. That should be good enough. If it isn't, you shouldn't have expected it in the first place.

(Oh yeah. If you're old enough to be my father, say 20 years older than me or something, I most likely won't respond to any sexual advances you make on me. If that bothers you, feel free to ask me why.)



AAAANYWAY. Here we go.

Lately, I've been going through a lot of shit. But we'll get to that later. If you want to know more about me, get ready to read a bit lol because I want to let you know as much as possible so you'll know if you want to talk to me or not.

So, to be straight forward.

I am a very nice person who will care about anyone even if they don't ask. I am very quirky and even "bubbly." I am generally very happy and hyper. I am one of those people who will help someone carry something heavy, return wallets, and expect nothing in return. I am very random and quite strange from what I hear. I have very different views on things most likely from the way that I grew up. I love people and how they think, and will listen to any opinions or thoughts you want to tell me, as long as you take part and be open minded as well. The only reason the human race will fall is being closed-minded, which leads to downright stupidity lol.

Another reason that was addressed to me the other day why someone thought I was odd was because they noticed whenever I talk about my past or things that make me sad either in person or over the computer, I smile. Even if it's made me cry before, I'll smile. Weird huh? I kind of think so. Haha, maybe it's a form of denial. I have no idea. To me, possibly it's because even though bad things happen, I still believe in the good in the world and that people are capable of wondrous things.

My parents and I don't have a relationship and haven't for quite some time. They are controlling ass holes who want nothing more than to tell me what to do. They stole my money, my car, even my pets. They are nothing to me anymore, because I am not going to deal with people who take and take, giving nothing back. No one can tell me what to do or how to be. I will be my own person, fuck everyone else if they don't like it. I'm me, and if we won't get along then it looks like we won't be friends and I'm perfectly okay with that because I'm tired of everyone's games.

I am a genuinely good person who will do almost anything for those I care about. I love to read books. To me, they are embodiments of knowledge that honestly I wish most people could download straight into their brains. I am a very intellectual person. I don't expect people to have a 200 point IQ, but if you don't treat people with basic respect then don't talk to me, please. It will save us both quite a bit of trouble.

I am very sensitive to things that go on in the world. I am also very empathetic. I pick up on others' feelings even if I don't want to. Honestly, I overthink things and let them get to me quite a bit. I used to be a very passive person who got walked on everywhere in every way, but I am not that person anymore. While still a very caring and loving person to everyone, if you want to just use me for some purpose that is negative then you can go screw yourself.

Since I am very emotional, I more so than a lot of people have a need to express myself in at least some way. I do this through drawing, writing, and playing guitar.

Art is very amazing to me mostly because the only limits you have are your abilities, which you can improve with enough motivation.

Words are the most common way to express one's thoughts. While they are very expansive and can communicate a very large number of ideas, they are still limiting.

I played guitar for a few years, though I haven't played in a year or so because my parents also stole my guitar. I am left handed and play on a left handed guitar, and cannot afford another one right now. Words and music together convey a great deal more feeling than words alone. Music itself, no words needed, can make a huge difference in someone's mind. I love techno and rave music for that reason.

That is the basic rendition of what I am, and hopefully you gained a sense of who I am with those words.

I would be happy to talk to you.

Haha I might seem kind of scary, but I'm not. Really. =]

My boyfriend (now my ex) and I have just broken up after being on and off for two years. I've learned a lot from that relationship, and while I still love him (he'll always be my best friend) we are not together. This being single thing is new to me, and I haven't done it in a while.