As I lay myself to sleep, I think about how toxic this life is. When I turn on the TV I hear suffering, violence, and all the negative things I want to escape into another world. I believe when I dream my soul is in a different world. The dreamer part of me is very sacred to me, because I remember dark images that seem to connect me with my past which becomes an unknown world. I have had these types of dreams many times before. The sky is pitch black, there is no moon, nor stars. I am in a circular premise on a stone bench sitting cross-legged. The circular premises have an enclosed gate made of iron it is bolted shut. It’s made of sharp needle thorns it’s the protection of people getting in. I am looking down in the dark fountain it displays all the suffering I have experience in my life. While my eye is streaming bloody tears which resemble how much hatred I have for my father. I look through the holes in the thorn garden and there is a trapped light it’s trying to reach me but I stop it. It’s very cold inside this garden I can almost feel your pulse weakening getting so numb that I can’t feel my own heart beating. When you exhale I see cold air escaping from my mouth. This dream makes me who I am today; learning how to forgive the pain my father caused me, and my family. It expresses how I can let my personal past go, and move on out of the trapped garden that stills haunts me today. I also believe when I dream there are hidden messages behind all the mysterious visuals. When I say “mysterious visuals†I am describing how my dreams connect me to a secret world. My secret world is both confusing and intriguing. In one dream I remember a magic mirror shining through this ancient castle on the other side. I step through the mirror and I end up transforming into a fairy queen. The sky is full of pink and violet clouds. While the grass is freshly green the lake is crystal blue I end up walking towards the castle and I enter and see this handsome prince as he approaches me he asks for my hand in marriage. In this dream I go into this world that I wish to be in so I can escape the pressures of reality. My dream focuses on desiring to be in a different world other than the one I live on. My dreams enrich my life because; I find peace and tranquility in them as well as explore my adventurous side. They enhance my abilities to grow from my past, and seek a good life that I wish to pursue. It enhances my artistic side because, all these unusual dreams I have appear to be abstract seeming to have no meaning but really mean everything. Before I was quiet as a mouse not exploring what was deep in my heart. That was depressing me for all these years. From this dream world, I end up learning and healing from my toxic past. .
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I'm a fresh rose--learning every aspect of life---what it throws at me and what obstacles i face. I have a very colorful vocabulary, my words come out as a metaphor--i like to make people guess and assume about me. Which makes me mysterious like a girl in the shadows that nobody knows well..only she does. I'm spiritual but trapped in the realms of reality vs fantasy. She loves art--, i draw sometimes when i'm bored or upset. She loves to write poetry---her words flow like velvet chocolate on a notepad. She loves music--her genres aren't just one but she mostly listens to rock, alternative, 90's grunge, industrial/ebm...even oldies. She is a proud scorpio---all the details or some, describes her characteristics...and what she wants in a romantic relationship. She has a lot of growing up to do--and will make sure i am. She is impatient---hates waiting on periods amount of time. She has a strong drive inside---wanting to make things happen at her feet. She knows it will take hard work and patience to do so. She's not into drama, ignorance, rudeness. She loves the people who are loyal, honest, caring, and relates to me. Even if she has a hard shell around her, she is soft in the inside. She cares, She makes mistakes, She is going to be a bloomed rose without thorns someday. Hello-- I'm Melanie