"Decadence is a difficult word to use since it has become little more than a term of abuse applied by critics to anything they do not yet understand or which seems to differ from their moral concepts."

-Ernest Hemingway-



Everything you'll ever need to know about me.

I like to think of myself as an optimistic misanthrope that's been burned one too many times, but still walks through the raindrops, a huge cynic, and your number one fan if I feel it's deserved. Although my fate is too walk with the femme fatale, I've managed to still keep my heart on my sleeve, and still be one of the least judgmental and easiest people to get along with. It's caused me to become quite the gypsy and travel the land on a 5 year basis or so, living my life as far off the beaten path as possible, usually chasing one dream or another. I really don't have a lot of faith in anything other than that change will always come with time, though not always for the better, and occasionally the complete opposite. I'm excessively prone to excess. It's kinda difficult to categorize me or place me in any kind of genre or subculture, spend little time with me and you'll see what i mean by that. I have no regrets, those ups and downs of my past have made me the happy go lucky smart ass I am today. I have a silver lined lip to match my silver lined tongue. As much as I do appreciate the compliments, please don't send me emails that consist of, "your pictures are cool," I get about ten of those a day, and I'd prefer something with a little more substance, also, please don't send those giant glittery "showing some love" comments, I don't think anyone actually enjoys receiving those, other than that, feel free to blow my shit up. Try not to judge me, cause chances are I won't respect your opinion, I live my life the way I choose to, and your input regarding the matter will most likely fall on deaf ears. I can cook like a motherfucker. I sing obnoxiously in my car. I try to live life at a very risky pace, always going balls to the wall with everything I do, I think any other way is too safe, and way too routine and boring for me, I look at it this way, the only things you end up regretting in life are the risk that you didn't take, so quit being a pussy. I have some of the greatest people in my life a person could ask for, and I never have to ask for a kiss. I'm one of the most sarcastic people you'll ever meet, and my sense of humor is quite dry and occasionally offensive, but if you can't take a joke then chances are we're not going to get along very well and I'll just make fun of you without you realizing it. Please don't ask me small talk questions like "so tell me about you," if you'd like to know about me, read this, and check out the blogs, those combined will give you a much better description of me than I can. I am bad with typos, but I take alot of meds, so it's alittle more acceptable. I don't think I'm perfect, far from it, but if I enter your life and give you a piece of my heart, do not ever, ever take me for granted, I'm a bit of a special case, in a good way, and your careless actions will heavily damage me further...plus I'll make your life a living hell if you hurt me. I would love to have my own Frank the bunny. I'm a gamer to a certain degree, I still say gimme Final Fantasy X, and I'll be happy for a month, plus I keep it real, I got a nintendo hooked up no less that ten feet from me, and castlevania is inside it. I'm a label whore, but in a fashion to avoid actually being labeled myself. I don't like kids, at all, we just have nothing in common and I don't know what to do with them, and yes, there actually are some of us out there still, people do have the right to have their own opinion regarding the topic. I can watch the History channel for days on end. Yes, those are holes in my ears, yes i will be ok with them when I'm 80.

I'm a firm believer that sometimes certain people don't mesh well, due to lack of common thread, some people mesh well even without, but that's a whole different form of love. On occasion, that lack of common thread can take years to discover. I also believe the more experience you gain in life, the smaller that spectrum gets...and once in awhile, we all run into the wolf in sheep's clothing, and sometimes his threads are of high quality. I love my family unconditionally and would do almost anything for them, because bless them for putting up with all my shit over the years. I have a few very close friends and the same goes for them, and if you aren't a part of that circle, you will never understand the HD. My best friend plays 3 instruments at once all the while singing in coffee shops and she's fuckin damn good too, she thinks I'M brilliant and it's those kind of people I feel I need to surround myself with, it may be pretentious, but as many have said before "normal people just wouldn't work for me." I'm a little too cocky for my own good. I have an huge fear of large bodies of water, cockroaches, trusting people, many social situations, bees, ignorance, those pinhead things from tod browning's movie "freaks", death, and Sicilians. I've broken many, many hearts, some of them I feel bad about, most I don't, a few I think deserve much worse, but don't get me wrong, I've been shit on just as much, probably more. I love fish, cooking, art, find other peas in my pod, respect, sex, booze (alittle too much depending on who you ask), roller coasters, being the "older brother", therapeutic occasional self- destruction, film, roadtrips, the limelight, watching karma in action, and seeing people who've wronged me in pain (I'm sorry, but I am one vindictive motherfucker), decent debates with someone who actually knows what they are talking about, being "that guy" and freedom of expression. Yes, I did design this profile, No, I won't do yours for you.

I am a firm believer of social Darwinism, and at times, something of an elitist, I know I have my faults like everyone else, but I try and fix mine, seems some people just rock theirs like it's the thing to do. I love women just a little to much and I swear it's going to be the death of me. I believe that nothing is ever unconditional, and the sooner you learn that, the easier your life will be, some people are just plain heartless human beings, and there isn't any amount of love, commitment, acceptance, or just all around help you throw in their direction it will never make a difference, and those people are better off being left alone, and realistically, the world would be a much better place without them, you know who I am talking if this sounds familiar. I usually like things that aren't good for me at all. I believe the rarest and most beautiful traits someone can possess is honesty, loyalty, and a willingness to just say fuck it and never look back, anything else I considered weak-willed. I'm in love with being in love and it seems to be my major downfall and if there's anything I've learned from it, it's to remember when you say "I love you"...that person you are saying it to, might have a different opinion of what love is than you do, although always remember to be happy with what you have. When I was a kid I was placed in front of the TV too many times and watched the neverending story and thought it was real and searched and searched for that book. I got huge heart that I use to look around for the one that's already gone. I'm a hopeless romantic to a ridiculous degree during a time when apathy reigns supreme

I can be shy or uncomfortable at times, although talk to any of my friends and they'll tell you that's a load of horseshit. Although I may seem the complete opposite on here, I'm a very humble person, I've learned from my mistakes and found some sort of peace, but just like anything else worth something, it's occasionally very hard to stay grounded. My life completely lacks spirituality, by personal choice, although I battle with that a lot. I've had a past that will make most people go wow...but I'm still alive, people say time heals, well those wounds leave scars and those are stuck with you forever. I hate twitter, and all that stupid tweeting bullshit. I'm Irish and I act accordingly. I hate talking on the phone. I really wish I was friends with Harmony Korine. I give to much, and don't take enough, I'll usually sacrifice myself to avoid people that care about being in any kind of mental or emotional pain, if you take the time to get to know me, I will be most likely be much different than you originally thought...all in all, I'm a pretty nice guy......and finally give a few months of your time and I can guarantee I'll make an impact......


“…the only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn like fabulous yellow roman candles…”

-Jack Kerouac