Who am I? That is a question I will be asking myself for the rest of my life, it is easier to ask who I was, who I am now and who I plan to be in the future. Everything of my past whether it be a good experiance or bad, has made me who i am now, and right now all I can see is that it is alot better than it has been. no matter how good I can make my life appear to anyone I know the truth is that it is not where I want it, but I am become very content with knowing that it will get better. I have always aimed high in my goals, and have learned that for the amount of energy I put into those goals no wonder why I have failed in the past, the present me is putting more into everything I do, I cannot live for a half assed life, I do still tend to fall into old habits, but getting rid of those habits is a dance I am willing to master. Who I plan to be in the future is a man who is bits and peices of myself and my lesson learned, becoming wise enough to actually put what I have learned into motion, rather than it just being a thought stewing in my head. The hardest thing I am learning right now is how to master my fears, dealing with emotion I have left untouched for years, and rise up out of the ashes of a life I once destroyed. I am not what I own, nor am I what people I know, it is hard to be yourself by yourself, and very hard to be that same person around others and not be affraid of what they think of you. I am learning to love all over again at this point in my life and I am starting with myself, and i promise that that in turn I hope to give a little more of that love to those who I have neglected over the years of being a selfish brat. I figure talking about my favorite foods, music, movies and all that junk is really not as important as what is truely part of my innerself, but if you want to know all the little extras, I am open to let you in. One thing about me that I am going through, is that life is short, and I could die tomorrow, so i do not want to waste time loving people that are going to not in turn give me the same respect, there are alot of people in the world that need love, and why should any one waste it one people who cannot love back, and I pray I never have to eat my own words, because I know I am talking a high game, but that is life one big risky ass game and we are all up in it playing along, if not you are just watching it.