I come online and I enjoy this medium so outside the day to day chores of my life. Thinking about the song broken road lately. Does everyone tread this road? How do people deal with it? This quirkiness, these pitfuls, this lack of direction, that I am faced with on this road I'm treading. These feet lose traction and I lose ground, and I find myself without control praying that I'll somehow get through this.

And, when I steer my way off course, I try to fill my mind with fanciful ambitions. I think to myself, "Oh well, if I accomplish this, I'll set myself apart from the masses - in the foggy dimness of just being 'another guy'."

If I wrote this song.
If I solved the energy crisis.
If I became wealthy.
If I became Leonidas of 300.

If I had the fortitude to meet life's challenges head on without lack of competency or self-confidence.

Fanciful. Fruitless it seems, as I can't live in my dreams.

'lo, I am stuck with the truth of the present, and the unexcusable mistakes of the past. No amount of wishing will shape my life, I just have to live it, and hope for the best, I guess. Just a lonely 24-year old 'boy' trying to bend time to his will. Trying to accelerate parts of my life while leaving other parts to dither and rust in unborn potential.

I mean, there is so much I could be doing. There is so much WE all could be doing, but we choose not to, or we simply leave these facets of our lives untouched, unused, wasted. Not to preach Ghandi,

but be the change we want to see in the world.

Don't let go of trust.
Let go to lust. Jealousy. Pessimism.

Why are we so disdainful others when we're just as guilty as anyone else?

And we know this! ..

... Jealousy, who hasn't been? And if they haven't been, they're certainly on a higher echelon of nirvana, enlightment, than the majority seems to be.



"You can only command nature by obeying her," she said, and I'm not exactly sure I get this!

But, as it seems, I found that there are things already put in place for our benefit. There are those things that seem like constrictions, restrictions, road-blocks, or hindrances, that we feel will interfer on our travel to our intended destinations.

If the road sign says 'stop', why do we feel compel to simply drive on through (sometimes! or those guys that simply meddle there way through...)? If anything, when we're disobedient to the signs life provides for us, (metaphor!) it just increases the probability for the crossings to become impasses where we find our selfish desires lead us no where...

If that makes any sense at all. Don't get me wrong. We're given choices! We have to make our own decisions, but what I think is amiss is that we don't have ALL the choices to be made. That's to say, we're really in this together. Even if you decide to battle this alone you simply can't ignore the will of others. It is called interdependence and in this we rely on each other to get anywhere, really. There are many choices that are made for us, and sometimes this could make it seem as if we are slaves to circumstance.

But, we are not completely void of choices ourselves must make, and so we must play our part. We just have to make sure that the choices we make are the right ones for us to be making...

I'm preaching.

And that's who I am, hoping to open doors for those reading this, and share in this digression...

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