my life is spiraling downward. i couldn't get enough money to go to the Blood Red Romance and Suffocate Me Dry Concert. It sucks cause they play some of my favorite songs like 'Stab My Heart Because I Love You,' and 'Rip Apart My Soul,' and of course, 'Stabby Rip Stab Stab." and it doesn't help that i couldn't get my hair to do that flippy thing either, like that guy from that band could do, some days you know. . .i'm an emo kid, non-conforming as can beyou'd be non-conforming to if u look just like mei have paint on my nails and make-up on my facei'm almost emo enough to start shaving my legs'cause i feel real deep when i'm dressing in dragi call it freedom of expression most just call me a f*g'cause their dudes look like chicks, their chicks look like d*kes'cause emo is one step below transvestitestop my breathing and slit my throati must be emoi don't jump around when i go to showsi must be emoi'm dark and sensitive with low self-esteemthe way i dress makes everyday feel like Hallowe'eni have no real problems but i like to make believei stole my sister's mascara now i'm grounded for a weeksulking and writing poetry are my hobbiesi can't get through a Hawthorne Heights album without sobbinggirls keep breaking up with me, it' never any funthey say they already have a p*ssy, they don't need another onestop my breathing and slit my throati must be emoi don't jump around when i go to showsi must be emodye in my hair and polish on my toesi must be emoi play guitar and write suicide notesi must be emomy life is just a black abyss, you know, it's so dark. and it's suffocating me. grabbing ahold of me and tightening it's grip, tighter than a pair of my little sister's jeans . . . which look great on my by the waywhen i get depressed i cut my wrists in every directionhearing songs about getting dumped give me an erectioni write in a live journal and wear thick rimmed glassesi told my friends i bleed black and cry during classesi'm just a bad, cheap imitation of gothyou can read me "Catcher in the Rye," and watch me jack offi wear skin tight clothes while hating my lifeif i said i like girls i'd only be half righti look like i'm dead and dress like a homoi must be emoscrew XBOX i play old school Nintendoi must be emoi like to whine and hate my parentalsi must be emome and my friends all look like clonesi must be emomy parents just don't get me you know. they think i'm gay just because they saw me kiss a guy. well, a couple of guys. but i mean, it's the 2000s. can't 2, or 4 dudes make-out with each other without being gay. i mean, chicks dig that kind of thing anyways. i don't know diary, sometimes i think you're the only one that gets me, you're my best friend. . . . i feel like tacos