6'2" 385lbs brown hair blue eyes
no tatoos no piericeings scars to many to label here lol
I smoke/dont drink or do drugs
Disabled
Capaicorn

orientation: Straight
active: Just Curious Right Now
is looking for: A play partner
Princess by day, slut by night
Friendship
A Full Time Relationship
A soul Mate
The Invitation :
It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting in your heart's longing.It doesn't interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dreams, for the adventure of being alive. It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain.I want to know if you can sit in pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it.I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own,if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tip of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, be realistic, or to remember the limitations of being human.It doesn't interest me if the story you're telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself; if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul.I want to know if you can be faithful and therefore be trustworthy.I want to know if you can see beauty even when it is not pretty every day, and if you can source your life from God's presence.I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand on the edge of a lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, "Yes!"It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have.I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done for the children.It doesn't interest me who you are, how you came to be here.I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back.It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied.I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away.I want to know if you can be alone with yourself, and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.



About me:
"Confusion and clutter are the failures of design, not the attributes of information."
About Me ? hmmmm...What do you want me to say? Words do not define a man.His actions, and the good words that people speak about him do.
I have sought out Hell,
Longed for the comfort of my grave,
My destiny yet to unfold,
I continue playing the game,
Wandering this Earth,
Seeking the answers,
To questions that haunt me,
To defy the system,
Never to conform,
Make my own rules,
Set my own standards,
Find my path,
Walk it with pride,
I paint my world black,
Colors only an illusion,
Deceptions made to confuse,
My eyes wide open,
I offer my wisdom,
Tell my story,
Give guidance to the ignorant,
I am not a Shepard,
I am not any stereotype,
I am me,
That is more than enough,
Until the moment of my true death,
I will continue being myself,
A demon in the guise of a man,
An angel saving you from yourself,
Nothing left to say,
I leave you with this,
A small part of my personal truth,
A deeper understanding of this man,
A creature of sin,
A tormented soul,
A lost child of Adam,
Waiting for a miracle
I am not old iam not new,i am just me, deal with it or leave my page im not here for your enjoyment, but for mine , I have been on this sight before and know the ins and out, so dont try me you will only piss me off..

Yes I am CONFUSSION,and welcome to my world,Respect and be Respected.
Let me introduce myself. I'm a gypsy, thief, bastard, I'm a writer who has published two books of dark poetry/dark poetic fiction. I really enjoy the darker things in life, I'm very morbid, into goth, punk, industrial, and bdsm life. Im not vanilla, I'll never truly fit into society even though I can fake it very well. I love all things horror, movies, books, and even in my play. I love cemeteries, the dead, the undead, everything that has to do with it. Music is my life, without it I would be lost,. I express myself to people more often than not with either music or poetry. I'm a helpless romantic that believes in romance, affection, and some of the softer things in life. Yet I also have a dark side, I have sadistic tendencies, I like to hurt girls. I'm not into anything extreme but my subs will wear my marks. I'm very loyal to the people I let in my heart, and I protect them fiercely. I'm very honest, I hate drama, I dont play stupid childish games, Haha I'm sarcastic, a smart ass, a lover, a fighter, a philosopher, a poet, a story teller, I am your best friend,or your worst nightmare.
I am that which I am and nothing more.


I recognize my responsibilities to my planet and all of the life and non-life upon its surface.
No longer shall I tread in the shadows of doubt and fear and oppression, for I know my right to be what I am, and my love and my spirit fill me up and spill over so that I can keep myself a secret no longer, and Do nothing unto another without explicit consent.
I believe I am solid in my relationship with the universe, and I shall let this energy propel me into service and charity for my entire community.
I will seek to correct misunderstandings with peace and tolerance.
As I will seek to teach, so will I seek to learn, that I may better understand.
I will bear in mind and Understand the critical importance of the mental and spiritual energy at play, and strive to enhance my skills in this area.
I will depend on my intuition.
I will be fiercely independent.
I will never be a joiner, because my spirit is far too fiercely independent.
Titles and labels mean nothing.
I understand that the universe is not bipolar and cannot be divided into black and white, good and bad.


I will celebrate when and where I want to.and Hold to these simple rules, but never force my conscience upon another. Yes , I am CONFUSSION,and oh my stars and garders its tea time, stop in have a seat, spend some time with me. Lets kick back talk, laugh, listen to some music, and get to know one another. Life is to short, let us enjoy ourselves, and if something develops wonderful. If not I look forward to making new friends, and share this life with you.
Come dance with me & leave this world behind, even if its just for tonight???



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