Here I sit this morning with only 10 days to go before I take this leap off into the unknown. I have never made a decision quite so quickly before in my life. Truth be told I am scared to death. When giving birth you have 9 months to prepare yourself. When you get married you have the engagement period to prepare yourself. I made this decision on a whim and now I am just plain terrified. What if I get to where I am going and hate it. What if I just put a monkey wrench in all the goals and dreams I had set for myself? These are all things I think of. I have been so wrapped up in school and preparations for my move that I am finally starting to slow down and think. I know at this time it is the best decision for me. But I am not the type of person who worries about me. I worry about everyone else involved. Everyone else and their happiness comes before mine. Its the way I live my life. Anyway, I guess I'm just venting. Deep Down I know it will all work out.
