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 WE HAVE A SPECIAL FRIENDSHIP,

AND I DONT KNOW HOW

IT GOT ITS START.

I DONT KNOW WHEN IT HAPPEN,

BUT ITS WARMTH DWELLS WITHIN MY HEART.

IT ARRIVED ALONG

WITH HAPPINESS

THAT GIVES

MY SOUL A LIFT,

AND I'M CONVINCED

THAT YOUR FRIENDSHIP

IS A PRECIOUS GIFT!

I,V SEARCHED HIGH AND LOW

FOR A PRECIOUS GEM.

LIKE YOU

YOU CARRY ME AT MY HIGH'S AND LOWS

THAT MAKES MY HEART AND FACE GLOW.

MY SEARCH IS OVER,

FOREVER..

WITH ALL I HAVE

I'LL ALLWAYS LOVE YOU

AND WHAT WE HAVE.

JERSEY XOXOX

FU GENTLEMAN  AND  I BECAME FRIENDS ,,LIKE ANY FRIENDSHIP  DEVELOPES   WE EXCHANGE NUMBERS . ONE OF MY WORST CHOICES EVER!!!!!!!! THE FIRST CALL HE MADE TO ME HE SHOWD UP IN MY HOME TOWN.. ASKING WELL ARE YOU GOING TO OPEN THE DOOR..!!!! IM THINKING OH CRAP..AND MAY I MIND YOU I TOLDHIM FROM THE START I WASNT GOING TO MEET ANYONE FROM HERE ANYTIME SOON... MY DAD WAS IN THE ER WITH A HEARTATTACK THAT DAY AND ALL HE CARED ABOUT WAS WANTING ME TO SUCK HIS YOU KNOW WHAT..NOW IM TELLING EVERYONE BE VERY CAREFUL OF THIS GUY HE IS ALSO A HACKER AND A BAILS BONDS MAN AND BOUNTY HUNTER..SO HE KNOWS WHAT HE IS DOING!!!!!!!! SERIOUSLY IM SCARRED TO EVEN WALK OUT MY DOOR..IM CHANGING MY CELL,,AND MAYBE MOVING... HE IS NOT A GENTLEMAN AT ALL... WHAT SHOULD I DO FU FRIENDS??? LEAVE ME A COMENT PLEASE IM VERY NERVOUS ABOUT THIS...

TO START THIS OUT I BEFRIENDED A MAN IN HERE THAT I KNEW WAS MARRIED... MY BAD I GUESS .. WE GOT FU MARRIED..SEC MISTAKE... I THOUGHT WE WAS GOING TO FRIENDS ONLY.. CAUSE HE IS MARRIED.. AS TIME WENT ON I WAS GROWING CLOSER TO A MAN WHO HAS A WIFE ... BAD ..BAD IDEA...I SAID TO MYSELF  DONT I DESERVE MORE... I GOT TIRED OF HEARING HOW HE WAS ON HIS WAY HOME TO HER,,TIRED OF HEARING HOW MUCH HE WAS BEGGING HER TO SLEEP WITH HIM,,ETC ETC THE NORM HE IS MARRIED JERSEY YOU HAVE NO RITE TO BE UPSET ... WELL RECENTLY I FOUND SOMEONE WHO CAN TALK TO ME ON DAILY BASIS AND ISNT MARRIED... I FEEL ALIVE AGAIN FOR THE FIRST TIME AFTER JUST LOOSING MY MOM... HE MAKES ME FEEL LIKE I AM SPECIAL.. I WANT EVERYONE TO KNOW I AM NOT A MEAN PERSON FOR LETTING SAY GO ... I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY..AND IM SORRY I HURT HIM..I WISH HIM THE BEST.. SO WHY DOES ALL THIS MAKE ME FEEL BAD??? I AM TRUELY FINALLY HAPPY WITH DUSTY.... AND ITS BEEN 8 YRS SINCE IV LET SOMEONE LOVE ME..SHOULDNT I BE HAPPY??

I AM NOT SORRY FOR MY SOUL,  THAT IT GOES UNSATISFIED,,FOR IT CAN LIVE A THOUSANDS TIMES!!! ETERNITY IS DEEP AND WIDE!!!!!   I AM NOT SORRY FOR MY SOUL.. BUT OH,,,MY BODY THAT MUST GO BACK TO A LITTLE DRIFT OF DUST WITHOUT THE JOY IT LONGED... I LL MISS THAT FEELING OF ARE LOVE,,,,WHEN WILL I KNOW THE JOY OF YOUR LOVE? COULD IT EVER BE?

SOMETIMES WHEN FAITH IS RUNNING LOW AND I CANNOT FATHOM WHY THINGS ARE SO .... I WALK ALONE AMONG THE FLOWERS I GROW AND LEARN THE ANSWERES TO ALL I WOULD KNOW!! FOR AMONG MY FLOWERS I HAVE COME TO SEE LIFES MIRACLE AND ITS MYSTERY... AND STANDING IN SILENCE AND REVERIE MY FAITH COMES FLOODING BACK TO ME!

I DO NOT EXPECT THE SPIRIT OF PENELOPE TO ENTER YOUR BREAST, FOR I AM NOT MIGHTY OR FEARLESS. (ONLY OUR LOVE IS BRAVE, A ROCK AGAINST THE WIND.) I CRY AND CRINGE WHEN THE CYCLOPS PEERS INTO MY CAVE... I DO NOT EXPECT YOUR LETTERS TO BE LENGTHY AND OF LOVE, FLOWERY AND PHILOSOPHIC, FOR WORDS ARE NOT OUR BOND. I NEED ONLY THE HARD FACT OF YOUR EXISTENCE FOR MY SUBSISTENCE. OUR LOVE IS A ROCK AGAINST THE WIND, NOT SOFT LIKE SILK AND LACE    .