you say you love me.. yet you never let anyone know that your with me.
you say you need me... yet i never i can tell
you say you want me forever... yet i dont know if thats true..
you tell me want me as your wife.. yet noone know for you havent said a thing
are you ashamed of me
are you wanting someone else.
are you wanting me gone
do you regret ever meeting me
do you want me to be forgotten
just tell me the truth.. im a nig girl i believe i can handle it
im tired of crying everytime i think
im tired of not being who i think i can be
im tired of feeling like im just here to here
im tired of hurting from crying so much
im tired of feelin like im nothing to everyone.
As I look through my life I see many mistakes, at times I feel losing that one person is one of them. Yet I also see where so many things could have been different.
If I was different, if I was in a different state of mind. If you were different, if you were in a different state of mind. Maybe things would have been different. I know we grew up in so many different ways. Yet I still feel in love with you. You made me feel alive, you made me feel as if I could do anything. Yet at the same time you made me feel as if I couldnt do anything to help you. I know I haev never told you this. And many people will never know who I am talking about. Yet I feel as if I needed to get this out, to let go of all this that runs around in my head. You know I explain things better when writing. SO thats what I am trying to do.
If things were different I would I have faught to keep you. Yet I am so tired of having to fight for everything that i am wore out. You know the fights i have been trought with everything that I dont have to explain it to you. Maybe finanly I have grown up to realise I cant have everything I want and I have to do with what I have. And who knows maybe I will be happy even though I love you as much as I do.
been sitting here wondering why i have choosen some of the things i have in my life lately. i love my boo with all my heart yet we cant be together. i wish there was a away for that yet everything seems against it. maybe if things were different i wouldnt be so worried about him all the time.
boo i love you...
love babygirl