Have you ever felt as if your not sure where your life should be, as if your trying to live two different lifes. Both lifes contradicting the other, not sure of the life you should lead, wanting to do both. nowing you can't. You have people you love and desire on both sides. Both sides wanting you, niether fully grasping you. You have people who want to help you, but you wont allow even though you desire it. Something is holding you tied to confusion. Not sure what to do you just block off everyone and everything. You try to hide this confusion frmo others, from yourself, but some manageto work in a little. They try to help, but your not sure what to do; let them help or hide even more. You have spent most of your life trying to figure it out but have only figured out that you may never be whole. Most of yourself is hidden from the world. You figure that because its you, you should know these things but can't seem to figure out why you dont know even yourself. Therefor you block everyone and everything out of most of your life. Decieving others even at times, feeling as if its the only way to protect them from the confusion...........
