Bougie With A Lil Hood's blog: "update"

Must easier to thank everyone this way for all the b-day love. I love ya all!!

Hugs and kisses

Juss wanted to let all my friends and family know I am back!!!!!! Thanks for all the love i recieved while I was gone!!! Hugs and kisses

juss wanted to drop ya all a note and let ya know I am stil alive. I was in the Hosp it for a few and feeling better now, but still not 100 % hope to be back when I am all better. Thanks for all the love you all keep giving me, I promise to return it when I get back,, love and miss ya all

Juss an update for those of you that knew my daughter was hurt tonight, she is going to be fine but is going to need awhile to get back to normal and be able to get around, thanks for the concern.. love you all

© By Brian K. Blackden The bell clangs, out of our bunks we roll Sliding down the bright brass pole On the truck donning gear Chanting our claim, no fear, no fear To the call we rush in the night Pull to the curb oh what a sight Flames, embers, people's screams One look now at many shattered dreams Into the fire we rush to save life Dragging our line, axe, and pike Up the steep stairs and through the hot door I step too quick and go through the floor Into the room below all aglow The fires intense my screams so immense The heat is unyielding but then I can see My body from above and what I am shielding It is God's will I went through that door And part of his plan I fell through that floor For my purpose is seen through my own tears I have given my life for one of two years Don't be angry I have lived my life true To the child I have saved I'm glad you will too I was a fireman and proud to be one I know your life's fate you'll be on truck one I know this is true for God has shown me One life for another as it will be As I watch from above my tears turn to joy I have given my life for my own little boy

Caught in confusion, life is such a delusion. One day you are up and the next day you are down. Sometimes you are happy and sometimes you are sad. Hanging on to yesterday and reaching for the future, yet forgetting to live in the present. Emotions mixed and running wild,some would call you a destiny child. Portal of happiness yet so consumed by sorrow and pain while looking for love yet having none to give. Feeling so unworthy to be loved and not willing to take a chance. Is love real in the first place? Often broken and saddened from trying to love, yet not knowing how. So many painful memories haunting from years that have past leaving you wondering how this broken emotion could have last? Changes all around, often felt abandon and let down. Always the feeling that people are trying to change you and that you are never good enough; the way you look, the way you act and even the way you feel. Is life so unreal? Broken Sparrow, what does your future hold? Light or darkness; you are given a choice between right and wrong. Cling to the past or move on! Helpless, hopeless, one only knows ones brokenness. Listen to the sound of a broken heart, what do you hear? A sound of silence exists lost in existence. Uncertainty of who you are and how you feel due to an illusion caught up in the moment of confusion. Broken Sparrow, how far will you roam? Will you find your wings and fly to a new home or will you circle the same flight path leading you nowhere while looking back into the past? There are mountains waiting for you to soar over to a destination that is unknown; tell me Broken Sparrow what are you waiting for? Do you fear the possibility of being left alone or do you believe in things yet unknown? The choice is crystal clear. Listen to the sound of the wind blowing. It is calling and wanting you to reach your destiny. It is time to move on.

once loved you so much And for so long. Why did you leave When I did nothing wrong? Your smile was once the sun On a dark, rainy day. It would clear up the sky And keep it from being gray. Your eyes were once the shine Of the world's glowing light. Or were they the twinkling stars That once filled the night? Your hands once had power To give me the softest touch. They'd always give me a slight tingle, Which is why I loved them so much. Your hugs were once the medicine That'd change a frown to cheer. A shiver would run through my body Every time I feel your love near. Your kisses were once the wind, They were fresh and breezy against my face. They were gentle, so gentle, It's something no one will replace. But, now you like someone else, And it's driving me insane. Although it's over for us, The love we had still remains. And so I tell myself... Never again will I cry. You were once everything to me, That I can't deny. But I couldn't keep my promise And broke out in tears. The hours I've cried feel like days, The days feel like years. As I bury my face in the pillow, And cry my heart out and grieve, I've learned to never give away love If love I don't receive.

Love Potion #9: In a small pot, simmer a half cup of jojoba oil and, moving your spoon clockwise, stir in 9 drops each of the following essential oils: ambergris, cinnamon, frankincense, jasmine, lavender, musk, orange blossom, rose, violet, and ylang ylang. Let cool and store in a dark glass container. Dab yourself with it as you would your favorite perfume before a night out (or a night in) to drive your loved one wild with desire. Love Charm: To draw love into your life, cut a three by three inch square of aluminum foil. All metals have attractive properties, and work much like a lightening rod which draws electricity from the atmosphere. Sprinkle a pinch each of dried parsley, rosemary, and thyme onto the center of the foil. Carefully fold the foil to keep the herbs sealed inside. Keep it against your heart to attract loving energies to yourself. Lust Spell: Nothing can spark the flame of love like candle magic. The element of fire has long been associated with romance. Before an encounter-- all the better if the moon is full-- obtain a red taper candle and a vial of rose oil. Carve your name and your mate's name into the wax with a pin. Anoint the candle with oil by rubbing it from top to bottom while envisioning your loved one. Visualize all the desire you feel for that person while mentally pouring that energy into the candle. Place the candle in a holder and light it. All the energy you have put into it will be released into the universe to take its course. For safety, do not leave candles burning unattended.

Well friends she did it. Bethany took her permit test today and passed. I took her out driving for about an hour today. She isnt to bad, BUT her turning leaves alot to be desired,,lol. YIKES

believe that the sun shines after the rain I believe if you don't get hurt you'll never gain I believe in not doing things the easy way I believe that being selfish doesn’t pay I believe in a second chance I believe in a life long romance I believe there is life after death And standing up to a life of mess I believe in love at first sight I believe that revenge isn’t right I believe that first impressions last And there is nothing better then a good laugh I believe that dreams do come true I believe there's destiny for me and you I believe that good things come to those who wait I believe love never arrives too late I believe a smile can be contagious I believe in being very outrageous I believe in living with no regrets I believe that life is as good as it gets I believe to always look on the bright side I believe that life is just one big ride I believe when I die people will grieve But it’s ok because I believe