Sicksicsix's blog: "Untaimed Anger"

For the past several day I have been angry. Everyone knows this kind of angry. Its the pent up rage you feel and it makes you more angry when you dont even know what it is that your angry at to begin with. I've been going through a rough time these past 3 or 4 weeks and havent been able to find much comfort. Some of my closest friends seem like they don't care much about my problems and almost care free in their own worlds. The only comfort iv been able to muster is sitting in a small room with nothing but an air mattress, my laptop, and a small TV. A lot of the time I feel angry at everything around me from the floor creeking, or birds chirping. My total silence from the world seems insignificant but at the same time sane.

There is one person I am thinking of right now and she has kept me calm and smiling through the last few days. She is quickly filling in what I felt to be a hole that would never be filled. Most people would consider this person in a way to be "the one". It's strange though how I feel this way for her and she's been there for quite a while. I never thought I would be able to be with her and it turns out we are compatable on many levels. Just the way she talks and the things she says make me believe this concept of "the one" to be true, though I didn't believe it before. She is proving to me that what I want and what ive been looking for is instilled in her. This has made the past few days bareable and worth waking up for. From the time my eyes open till the time the close, im thinking about her.

Though my sanity withers away, she is there to remind me that people are careing and that life is worth living.