find i can no longer fight what has already been set in stone before i existed.all my adult life i have strove for things i was never ment to posses wich others find so commen and normal. somewhere over the long fight i forgot that you shouldnt fight the waves of existence you should ride them let them carry you to and fro.and for some reason ive been stubborn and pig headed all this time i yearn for the time when i was young care free and everything was ahead of me but those times are no more i must realise i have lost the good fight and quit fighting that wich is natrual once again i find myself pulling my hood over my head and slowly turning away from the light and life and walking into the shadows where im at peace taking but a moment to slowly turn around and see what was or could have been my salvation my joy my hopes and dreams the sunlight that i shall not feel unless its reflected off the moon i feel i must walk in the dark and not set foot in the day time realms again my constant and only companion the darkness i know all too well this last year was just a small example of what happens when you dont accept your lot in life
