cubanqt's blog: "today"

well she found out about me..and in the end he picked her..I kinda knew that was going to happen..I just kinda wished that in the end he would pick me..He told me they were having problems and that he wanted to be with me..Theres more going on that I found out..Her dad is his boss..so I dont know if that has anything to do with it..who knows..I havent spoken to him in a few weeks and I do miss him like crazy..also I found out that he is leaving to Iraq in September for 6 months..this sucks..

I hadx such a crazy night..it started and 11:30pm and ended at 5:15 this morning.. I'm getting attached to a guy that has a girlfriend. When I met him he didn't tell me he had one. Now I'm just stuck and I like him a lot. I'm like his GF#2..when she isnt around I am..I want to let him go but I cant. I want him to choose but I dont want to pressure him. I want to be with him right now..even though I was just with him 3 hours ago.I didnt want to leave his side..I had to go to work. If not I wouldve stayed... I hate this