babygirl aka babycakes's blog: "y"

As I look through my life I see many mistakes, at times I feel losing that one person is one of them.  Yet I also see where so many things could have been different.

If I was different, if I was in a different state of mind.  If you were different, if you were in a different state of mind.  Maybe things would have been different.  I know we grew up in so many different ways.  Yet I still feel in love with you.  You made me feel alive, you made me feel as if I could do anything.  Yet at the same time you made me feel as if I couldnt do anything to help you.  I know I haev never told you this.  And many people will never know who I am talking about.  Yet I feel as if I needed to get this out, to let go of all this that runs around in my head.  You know I explain things better when writing.  SO thats what I am trying to do.

If things were different I would I have faught to keep you.  Yet I am so tired of having to fight for everything that i am wore out.  You know the fights i have been trought with everything that I dont have to explain it to you.  Maybe finanly I have grown up to realise I cant have everything I want and I have to do with what I have.  And who knows maybe I will be happy even though I love you as much as I do.