ThatDGAFChick's blog: "This is me"

A question for the fu world....Do u ever wake up sometimes and feel lost and have to question where has your life gone and what are u doing about it? I woke up the other day asking myself that. Now I have a great family and a great job that i actually enjoy and yet my life somehow just feels empty. I have no reason why i feel this way. I enjoy my life to the fullest and rally have no complaints. Some days I wish I could go back to my highschool days and hang with the friends i had and do what I did. I had no responsbilities and not a care in the world. But there is no going back and I know this....Im ready to go forward and live my life and find out whats around the corner.... Im ready for some serious adventure. Im ready to meet new people, im ready to meet that special guy who is gonna flip my world upside down and all around.... But right now I just feel stuck and I hate the feeling and I hate not knowing what to do about it...please tell me i am not alone in this feeling?? It would be nice to know that there is at least someone out there who feels the same as i do.

10. A body pillow doesnt mind when you hog the blankets. 9. it doesnt mind when you hog the whole bed. 8. It doesnt shove you away if you snore. 7. You dont have to worry about offending it with your morning breath. 6. you dont have to worry about looking gorgeous when you wake up in the morning. 5. you never wake up in the mornings looking at it thinking "oh my god what the hell did I drink last night?" lmfao 4. You can wear sweat pants and a sweater to bed without it complaining. 3. Your friends wont discuss who you "sleep" with....(AMBER!!!!!! Leave me alone lmao) 2. You can go days without shaving ur legs and the number 1 reason........ 1. You dont have to worry about drooling all over it while ur asleep!!!! Lmao....ok so I was super bored and thought this would get a few laughs! How many of you can agree with any of these???

"Leave Out All The Rest" I dreamed I was missing You were so scared But no one would listen Cause no one else cared After my dreaming I woke with this fear What am I leaving When I'm done here So if you're asking me I want you to know [Chorus] When my time comes Forget the wrong that I've done Help me leave behind some Reasons to be missed And don't resent me And when you're feeling empty Keep me in your memory Leave out all the rest Leave out all the rest [End Chorus] Don't be afraid I've taken my beating I've shared what I made I'm strong on the surface Not all the way through I've never been perfect But neither have you So if you're asking me I want you to know [Chorus] When my time comes Forget the wrong that I've done Help me leave behind some Reasons to be missed Don't resent me And when you're feeling empty Keep me in your memory Leave out all the rest Leave out all the rest [End Chorus] Forgetting All the hurt inside You've learned to hide so well Pretending Someone else can come and save me from myself I can't be who you are [Chorus] When my time comes Forget the wrong that I've done Help me leave behind some Reasons to be missed Don't resent me And when you're feeling empty Keep me in your memory Leave out all the rest Leave out all the rest Forgetting All the hurt inside You've learned to hide so well Pretending Someone else can come and save me from myself I can't be who you are I can't be who you are

How can I decide what's right? When you're clouding up my mind I can't win your losing fight all the time No care to ever own what's mine When you're always taking sides But you wont take away my pride No not this time Not this time How did we get here? Well I use to know you so well How did we get here? Well, I think I know The truth is hiding in your eyes And its hanging on your tongue Just boiling in my blood, But you think that I can't see What kind of man that you are If you're a man at all Well, I will figure this one out On my own ("I'm screaming I love you so") On my own (My thoughts you can't decode) How did we get here? Well I use to know you so well, yeah. How did we get here? Well, I think I know Do you see what we've done? We've gone and made such fools of ourselves Do you see what we've done? We've gone and made such fools of ourselves Yeah How did we get here? Well I use to know you so well, yeah yeah. How did we get here? Well, I use to know you so well I think I know I think I know There is something I see in you It might kill me I want it to be true

U know....i love my family very much but i dont like them. They all decided to show up last night because my grandpa was put in the hospital. I know they mean well but christ, the last thing my grandpa needs when he comes home today is a house full of people and 2 kids that are the spawn of satan. Im exhausted from all that has happened and this house just needs peace and quiet. Instead they wanna clean the damn house from top to bottom cause one of them is allergic to my dog....which whatever yeah ok i can understand that but while they do it they wanna bitch and complain because i let him run around the house. well yeah duh..he's my fucking dog and this is my house. I dunno...im just done and frustrated with all this...I just wanna lay down and not worry about playing host to them. I have to work tonight and the exhaustion hanging over me sucks right now. I feel at a breaking point where i just need to lay down in my room and cry a lil bit...but I cant cause all they wanna do is come in here and bitch about something. Whats worse is if i say one cross thing it will start some big ass confrontation...Its just not fair right now...I hate it!! Am I complaining about something stupid? To you guys, probbaly but I honestly dont care at the moment...Im just done

Remember, Happiness is the art of living, the purpose of our existence. Happiness is the true index of quality of life. Without happiness, life is dry and meaningless. With happiness, life immediately becomes fulfilling and wonderful. Happiness is an infectious feeling that immediately lifts the sagging spirits of people. Happy people keep themselves happy because they know the little ways to appreciate themselves and to see the humour and magic in each moment. Live, Laugh Love! One love

I have an issue with 2 family members who I love more than life its self...but laltely it seems that they love a drug more than their lives... I have given into the fact that one of them is just dependent on this drug and she will never say no to it...she tried and she failed. The other family member has just barely started with this nasty drug but is far from ready to leave it alone because of who he hangs with....... Am I guilty for them being dependent on this drug?? Yes I am...I admit...I have given them both money to deal with their urges, purely because i did not want to deal with their come downs. But lately I have come to realize that I just cant do it anymore...and I dont wanna do it anymore...Laltely I have been telling both of them what I think of them and yes it has caused some tension. My relationship with them has changed dramatically. It seems like I cant go more than 2 days with out talking to one of them and getting into a fight...I cant walk away from them without crying or worse yet breaking into hives. I have gotten to the point where I am making myself sick cause i am so worried and mad at the same time for their bullshit. I have tried so many times to offer them help and yet they just dont want it...Im at wits end, Im not sure there is anything left to help them...and that is so sad to realize. Im sure maybe most of you have dealt with this drug and despise it....Meth is a nasty thing and I hate it with a passion. I hate what it has done to my family and I hate it even more for the destruction and sadness and bitterness it has left in me. I myself have never touched that shit in my life nor will I ever. And that is an honest promise I can make...... Im now at a point where I feel as if I have to cut myself off from certain people...Im afraid for them but to be honest Im afraid for myself and the way I have been feeling lately. Its to the point of do I keep dealing with the issues and let myself remain unhappy?? or do I meet it head on and tell my family..fuck you do what u want but leave me alone???...either way Im losing i feel.... I hate the fact that I have finally realized that I am an unhappy person. I FUCKING HATE that...I LOve being happy....I love smiling and laughing and being genuinely happy. Now its just fake shit, its motions...the smiles are forced as well as the laughter...Im not happy with my life and it sucks to realize it..... I wish....*sigh* to be honest I dont know what I wish for anymore....just to be happy i guess but the question is: how do I do it? How do I make myself happy and forget everyone else just this one time??

told to me by my mother..... "if it had a hole your dad was in it and if it has a pole joeys on it" lmfao.....oh my mom is crazy

"Do Somethin'" [Intro] Do you feel this I know you feel this Are You ready? I dont think so [Part 1] Somebody give me my truck So I can ride on the clouds So I can turn up the bass like... Somebody pass my guitar So I can look like a star And spend this cash like... Whatchu gonna do when the croud goes Ayo? Why you standin' on the wall? Music startin' everywhere So why dont you just move along? [Chorus] I see you lookin at me Like I'm some kind of freak Get up out of your seat Why dont you do somethin'? I see you lookin' at me Like I got what you need Get up out of your seat, Why dont you do somethin'? [Part 2] Now you all in my grill Cause I say what I feel Only rock to what's real Baby bump bump But I can't do that with you Only here with my crew I can roll if you can Dont be a punk punk Whatchu gonna do when the croud goes Ayo? Why you standin' on the wall? Music startin' everywhere So why dont you just move along? [Chorus x2] Na nananananana Uh! Na nananananananana [Bridge] I see you lookin' over here Cant you tell I'm havin' fun If you care like I know You would stop starrin' at us And get your own space And do somethin' [chorus x2] Fuck! Do Somethin' Ow! Why dont you do somethin'?

Superstar Where you from, hows it going? I know you Gotta clue, what you're doing? You can play brand new to all the other chicks out here But I know what you are, what you are, baby Look at you Gettin more than just re-up Baby, you Got all the puppets with their strings up Fakin like a good one, but I call 'em like I see 'em I know what you are, what you are, baby Womanizer, Woman, Womanizer You're a Womanizer, oh Womanizer oh You're a Womanizer, baby You you you are, You you you are Womanizer, Womanizer, Womanizer (Womanizer) Boy, don't try to front I know just what you are Boy, don't try to front I know just what you are You got me goin' You're oh so charmin' But I can do it Womanizer Boy, don't try to front I know just what you are Boy, don't try to front I know just what you are You say i'm crazy I got your crazy You're nothin' but a Womanizer Daddy-O You got the swagger of champion Too bad for you You just cant find the right companion I guess when you have one too many, makes it hard It could be easy, who you are Thats who you are, baby Lollipop Must mistake me, you're a sucker To think that I Would be a victim not another Say it, play it how you wanna But no way Im ever gonna fall for you, never you, baby Womanizer, Woman, Womanizer You're a Womanizer, oh Womanizer oh You're a Womanizer, baby You you you are, You you you are Womanizer, Womanizer, Womanizer (Womanizer) Boy, don't try to front I know just what you are Boy, don't try to front I know just what you are You got me goin' You're oh so charmin' But I can do it Womanizer Boy, don't try to front I know just what you are Boy, don't try to front I know just what you are You say i'm crazy I got your crazy You're nothin' but a Womanizer Maybe if we both lived in a different world (Womanizer, Womanizer, Womanizer, Womanizer) It would be all good, and maybe I could be your girl, but I can't cause we don't Womanizer, Woman, Womanizer You're a Womanizer, oh Womanizer oh You're a Womanizer, baby You you you are, you you you are Womanizer, Womanizer, Womanizer (Womanizer) Boy, don't try to front I know just what you are Boy, don't try to front I know just what you are You got me goin' You're oh so charmin' But I can do it Womanizer Boy, don't try to front I know just what you are Boy, don't try to front I know just what you are You say i'm crazy I got your crazy You're nothin' but a Womanizer Boy, don't try to front I know just what you are Boy, don't try to front I know just what you are Womanizer, Woman, Womanizer You're a Womanizer Oh Womanizer oh You're a Womanizer, baby