WHY DO PEOPLE PRETEND TO BE THINGS THEY ARE NOT|?
I AM NOT PERFECT. I HAVE 4 KIDS AND AM DIVORCED. I DRINK ON WEEKENDS. I HAVE BAD HABITS. I AM A CHERRY TAP ADDICT. I LOVE TO SIT AND DO GRAPHICS.
IM NOT PERFECT. BUT I DO HAVE A HEART AND IT DOES BREAK AND IT CAN LOVE. I HAVE RECENTLY HAD SOMEONE THAT HAS CAME INTO MY LIFE THAT MEANS ALOT TO ME. HES A GREAT PERSON. HE CARES ABOUT MY FEELINGS AND WHAT IM THINKING AND VALUES MY OPINION ON EVERYTHING HE DOES. I APPRECIATE THAT. I DONT THINK HE UNDERSTANDS HOW MUCH I DO APPRECIATE THAT BUT I DO.
ANYWAY....
ON WITH MY VENTING. WHY DO I HAVE TO MEET GUYS WHO ONLY WANT A PIECE OF ASS? IS THAT ALL IM GOOD FOR? IT VERY WELL MAY BE. BUT I SIT HERE AT 32 AND WONDER? WILL I EVER HAVE A MAN TO CALL MY SOULMATE. MY BETTER HALF. THE ONE THAT MAKES ME WHOLE AGAIN... BACK IN THE DAY I WAS A DJ AT A NIGHTCLUB. I GOT OUT OF HAND. I WASNT A WHORE BUT I HAD MY SHARE OF ONE NIGHTERS. IT WAS FUN AT THE TIME I THOUGHT. BUT NOW I SIT HERE AND THINK. ALL THE PEOPLE THAT USED TO KNOW ME LIKE THAT. THINK THAT I AM STILL LIKE THAT. AND I HATE THAT FACT. I AM NOT LIKE THAT. I TRY TO BE THE BEST MOTHER I KNOW HOW TO BE. I TRY TO BE A GOOD PERSON. AND WHEN GUYS ASK ME TO SCREW SO TO SAY IT UPSETS ME CAUSE EVEN IF THEY DONT KNOW ME THEY JUST ASSUME THAT IM ANOTHER GIRL THAT DOESNT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT HERSELF.WELL ITS NOT TRUE.. I DO GIVE A FUCK ABOUT MYSELF AND MY KIDS. AND WANT WHAT EVERY OTHER GIRL WANTS. SOMEONE TO LOVE ME UNCONDITIONALLY. SOMEONE TO LOVE ME FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE, GOOD OR BAD. IS THAT SO BAD TO ASK FOR?
