We had decided to go to ravens hometwon for her 21st birthday, and the week was amazing, but raven just wasnt herself, i felt there was something wrong but i didnt know what it was or if it was me being my usually self thinking into things too much, so i left it at that.
The week flew by, we saw all raves friends and had a fun filled week, i really enjoyed it, but the week was comming to an end and it was friday afternoon, i was sat in the room with amandas fiancee and the girls were in the kitchen.
Id heard raven sniffling like she'd been crying, so i went in to investigate and comfot her, i hate to see her down or upset.
as i walked in and looked over to raven, she turned to me and said, 'hello daddy' i stud dead in my tracks not fully realizing what she'd just said, i said what, and she said again, 'hello daddy' and showed me a test she had just taken, and sure enough she was pregnant.
my heart came up into my mouth and the biggest lump in my throat id ever had, not wanting to cry infront of everyone i held back the tears and was speachless, so many feelings running through me from happyness came shock, and nervousness cuz id not expected it and the thought of becomming a father finally after 10 years of wanting children brought an overwhelming sense of everything over me, i just cant explain. i just held raven in my arms and cuddled her while she cried with joy.
Her mum and her sister were crying too, jason was smiling and makin sarcastic but congratulating comments to me to try and get ppl laughin, dont think he liked how all the girls were crying, makin him not know what to do, same here i didnt know where to turn or what to say or do i was in complete shock, but a good shock.
so finally i said i think this calls for coffees lol, and everyone agreed, there was only 4 of us and what usually takes me 5 minuits to make them, i was at it half an hour cuz i just couldnt focus on them with all the thoughts of raven and a baby, a baby of my own which i thought id never have, my dreams come true and i as the happiest man alive, im finally gonna have a family i can call my own.
raven was cuddling her mum all the time i was doing the drinks and still crying, she too had wanted it for so long and was gettin so down over not been able to concieve earlier, but paitients is a vertue and we finally atcheived everything we had wished for.
once everything calmed down ravens family left us in the kitchen together for some time for us, and we just stud and cuddled each other, we never spoke, we just cuddled, we didnt need to speak, we knew what each of us were thinking and feeling, we have that kind of bond, and it was one of the more moving times in my life, holding my family in my arms, i was overjoyed and couldnt wait to hold the baby.
once everything had calemd down we started to phone and text everyone we knew, the phone calls kept comming the txts we recieved were awesome, lots of support and congrats from everyone, while we txting and phoning around, we started to get ready to go out, and tell everyone, theres too much to talk about on here for that but lets just say the responce we got was nothing id have expected, thought just a few ppl would would give us their blessings and congrats ect, but no, EVERYONE did, i was shocked to see exactly how many people wished us both all the best and even spoke to me, i REALLY felt like part of the barnsley troop now, and made me wanna get up there even quicker. all in all it was the best night of my life and i know for a fact it was ravens too.
