the ebb and flow of tides....
make me feel tired and worn.
there's so many highs and lows in life...it's kind of lost me...somewhere in the jumble of people, and their wants and needs.
thank you, to the people that have used me for their own personal gain over the last couple of months...
i really do appreciate any eye opening life experience...
may not have been the best way to go about learning a lesson, but i now know what i would rather not be...how i would rather not be.
shame on me for acting the way i do...
shame on you or the same.
so is this the point that i vow to never do fill in the blank, again? where i swear that from this moment henceforth, i'll be a different person...make better choices...
why make a promise to yourself that you know you can't keep?
how about this: i'll try my best.
that when the time comes, i'll possibly have some sort of willpower...or something blah blah blah.
there's no good excuse for acting in an unbefitting manner...to have a sense of propriety...
i may be lonely...but rewarding people for taking the time to spend with me, isn;t the right way to go about it. being lonely...i really shouldn't try and fill it with emptiness instead of heart.
