i'm a quiet, shy keep to myself kind of person at first, but once you get to know me a lot better i'm rather fun and outgoing. i've been through a lot since i've been 18 between bad relationships and a hard home life with my family. i've gone through more than you'll know, i've been down a path of drugs and alcohol and have been sober now for over 2 years, i had a minor relapse a while back, but have gotten back on the straight and narrow road. i enjoy spending time alone as well as with my significant other, i've learned to put all the bullshit behind me and look to the future to get through everyday. i don't know what it's like to look down on anyone else because everyone else always looks down on me. i have just recently figured out the meaning of put your family first, if it wouldn't be for my aunt to outstretch a helping hand, i wouldn't be where i am right now, i don't know where i would be.
when i was 19 i went through one of the hardest times in my life, i was trying to figure out if i was meant to be here or not. i have a lot of good friends in my life right now that are pushing me to do better in life and it helps me out. i live everyday as it comes and try to see the good in each day, but it's really hard to do that. a lot of my relationship problems stem back to my first one, he was a true blue asshole everyday we were together, i can't believe i went through 6 months of hell with him. i've been engaged twice and realized i wasn't ready to settle down, i wanted to explore the world and the oppurtunities out there. i've been hurt too many times and just want to be happy. i'm not trying to sound all pitiful in this but i want to give you all a general idea of who i am.