VenomousFM2Suzie's blog: "Realizations.."

I have been alive for 49yrs 10mos and 12days I have seen people I loved and care for die and most of my mentors 

have passed on. I had so many chances to better myself but for so many REASONS/EXCUSES I simply have not.

I wasted this life with all my fancy hopes and dreams and now in a decade of so I will simply cease to exist.

I have had too many jobs to count hoping that the NEXT ONE will be my CAREER job that I work till I get that

retirement part and that cool gold watch. I doubt this is gonna happen. I am NOTORIOUS at being the GOOD GUY

but its really true good guys do finish last, especially this one.

I am there but you are the one that yes's me to death not even really noticing that I do exist, its like this for everyone I kno

Family friends, everyone.

I do my best to make an impact to show you I care, it simply doesnt work. I know why some people Kill themselves now

but for me that just isnt isnt an option, I will just keep trying.

and then one day I will simply cease to be and noone will even notice