SiNgLenLoOkIn's blog: "POETRY"

I'm sorry for everything you've been through It must've been very hard on you I'm sorry for all that's been said and done I was the moon, you were the sun I'm sorry for not making everything right But the situation I was in, was very tight I'm sorry for not lending you a hand If only I could be a better friend I'm sorry if it seemed like I didn't care Lucky for you, your special- someone was there I'm sorry for breaking your heart For forgiveness, where do I start?

Alone in a dark room He has run out of options He has no one to turn to No one to care He's crying and scared But he must do it This world’s just too cruel No one will notice A man has killed his-self A gun in his hand Black and emotionless This is it The suffering ends tonight The loneliness stops now The fight is over The deed done On the floor he lies Not a breath he takes A gun in his hand And blood running down his face An unsuspecting mother Comes to tell her son good night But she hears a gun shot And is stricken with fright She runs down the hall Horror tearing at her heart She slams open the door And stops mid breath Her only son Dead on the floor His face tell no tale But his note tells much more He had no one to turn to So the poor man lost his mind Alone and scared He decided to take his life A mother heart broken And an only son dead The crime was committed The deed was done A lonely man left in a dark room With a bullet and gun BY,BRAD

Life is never good for me and this is what I wish you'd see. Just let me end it all for I'll be happy in the end, I'll finally be free. Free from all the pain and torment and the never ending battle. No more dealing with the arguments and tears, I'd finally be through with it all. You just don’t seem to understand that by keeping me here you’re making it worse. If I were dead and gone by now I'd be happy, I wouldn’t have this life, I wouldn't have the curse. I’m already considering doing this even without your consent. I know for sure that once it’s all over with my heart will finally be content. So here I am just sitting there, on my bed with a knife to my wrist. Please everyone don’t be upset, please don’t be pissed. You just need to know I love you all but couldn’t handle it anymore. Ok here I go, I’m doing this for sure. You just need to let me go to heaven now, hopefully God will understand and accept this. Just tell my babies I love them and I’m sorry I couldn’t give them one last kiss. Tell everyone I love them and that I'm sorry I had to go so soon and leave them all behind. But I just needed to end it all and start a new life so happiness I could find. These are the last words I'll ever be writing down. I know they are harsh but don’t worry, rest your head, be at ease, don’t make a sound. Know that I love you and always have but I need to think of me right now and so I said goodbye. Be happy without me and know that I'm somewhere good, somewhere up high. I just hope your not crying, I want you to know everything will be ok. I'll be watching over you and listening to what you have to say. Just have patience, wait till the day, and I'll see you up here in heaven and we can be together. Except this time things will be better and you'll see me happy, always and forever. So stop your weeping and know this was the best thing for me It was my time to go, your time to set me free. BY,BRAD

Do not stand at my grave and weep, I am not there, I do not sleep. I am a thousand winds that blow. I am the diamond glint on snow. I am the sunlight on ripened grain. I am the gentle autumn rain. When you wake in the morning hush, I am the swift, uplifting rush Of quiet birds in circling flight. I am the soft starlight at night. Do not stand at my grave and weep. I am not there, I do not sleep. Do not stand at my grave and cry. I am not there, I did not die!

I lie awake and think of my life Why is it in such a mess, is it my fault? I thought you would understand me but you proved me wrong While reaching out for my pen knife, my mind has gone blank... I just can't understand a thing...I am just not perfect... Every time I think everything is going to be alright...something bad happens... I just want a perfect family...why is it so hard for you to understand... I have lost in love once again...cried so much that I just can't stop myself... I am not a perfect person..sorry....