aspiringwriter's blog: "Poems"

First Layer

The first layer is easy, it took no effort. I wont penetrate deeply Ill apply little pressure. The scar it will leave it signifies pain it helps me remember what I lost yesterday.

I sharpened the blade, the handle feels smooth. The purpose issimple it helps me accept that I lose. It reminds me I'm living but inside I'm dead it helps me stay focused and never forget. About why I should never allow myself to be vulnerable by giving in to my emotions and getting my heart broke.

The first layer is easy, it takes It takes little effort. I won't penetrate deeply I won't apply too much pressure. The scar it will leave it signifies pain it helps me remember what I lost yesterday.

But the blade had been sharpened it cut deper then intended, I meant to just graze the skin but the blade cut with intentions. It wanted to save me it wanted to end it. Now the blood is my scar the blade is my witness. It watches me bleed far more then intended.

The first layer was easy, the others were painless. My body lays dieing, my pain it has ended.

A Talk With God

“I feel dizzy...”

“You'll be okay.”

“I can't walk...”

“Then take a break.”

“I feel lost...”

“You'll find your way.”

“My heart is gone...”

“Just have faith.”

“Faith in what? That she'll be back?”

“Have faith in the love that you still have...”

“Have faith in the promise that you both made, that your love for eachother will not fade...”

“Have faith that she wll find a way to be with you again some day...”
“It was not her choice, she had to leave, to protect you for the time being...”

“She is strong and right now she hurts, just let her know you'll still be hers...”

“That it's okay she did nothing wrong, her hand was forced but not for long...”

“Let her know that you will wait, that you won't give up. You still have faith. Because your love will give her strength and help her thru these bitter days.”

“Thank you God, I understand. I'll let her know the best way I can.”

I'm sitting here confused, my worlds in disarey... I don't know how this happened I thought things were going great.

Fora moment my life was like a work of art, a flawless still life at its best. One that's easy to gaze uon and understand what it represents. But now the piece is more expressive than the previous work of art, you rearranged the picture and so thus were my thoughts.

I do not knw the things you say, I can not see them clear, I feel as though you hide from me a truth i cannot hear. So you pushed me away or hell maybe it was it was all a lie and you left me with the masterpiece that represents my life.

But i cherish all the time we shared and I'll treasure this work of art, so I'll proudly hang it on the wall that forever gaurds my heart.

Its the time of darkness gone is light. Those with faith will have to fight.  The dead will walk in dead of night. Be prepared its judgement time.

Forget your family dont go home, they are gone you are alone. Dont try to hide just dig a hole, he has come to claim your soul.

Dont kneel down and try to pray, your god has left you on this day. There is no hope you wont be saved, youv been judged and you will pay.

The darkness wins forever night, there is no sun there is no light. He has come to take your life, your souls been damned for all of tiime.

My doctor told me today that I should cherish life because my heart is getting weaker and could stop at any time. Hey couldnt give me date and I didt ask why, I dont want to know how soon I will die.

So now when people ask me how my day went, I said I woke up still breathing and Im thankful for it because I cant ask for a better way for my day to begin.

The rest of the day went great because I experienced the things that makes life so precious to us mortal beings.

Its the little details we take for granted like the things we still have because we focus too much on what we had in the past. But no longer will I dwell on the ones that Ive lost its time that i appreciated the ones that Ive got.

The days come to an end and once again I will sleep. But now I look forward to what the new dawn will bring. But if this is the night that you and I part just know that I loved you with every beat of my heart.

I wish for once that I could be, the one in which you often speak. The whom of which you like to think, the one who makes your knees go weak.

I wish for once that I knew all the things that I could do to be the one thats close to you, to be the one that you love too.

I wish for once I was that guy, the one that takes you out at night. The reason for which you smile wide, the one that will make you his wife.

I wish for once that you knew how I really felt for you, and all the things that I would do to be the one that you loved too.

I fell in love and chose to leave in search of a better me. It took some time for me to find that the life I left behind was the key to complete that piece that made me feel empty. But in the time that I had gone the one I loved had moved on. I fell in love but I was blind to what I had before my eye. But now I see that what I need is the love she gave to me. If my life I could rewind, I'd go back to that first line. But I cannot change the course of time, I dug this grave and in it I'll lie.

Tears of sorrrow, tears of pain. My tears of sadness I keep contained.I miss you brother but gone you're not. Ive got our memories, Ive got your thoughts. I'm torn apart because you're not here, but you're in my heart, you'r in my tears. I will not cry or set them free, since you're in them they'll stay in me.

Most men base perfection on a womans physical features but a good woman judges a man on the way that he treats her. I recently had the luxury of  meeting the most beautiful creature and I can only dream of the day that I could be with her.

She has a beautiful smile and incaptivating eyes that I'd be lucky to stare into for the rest of my life. If i could I would hold her all thru the night and dream of the day that I made her my wife.

She is real smart and has a great sense of humor. Shes captured my heart so theres nothing I wont do for her. She is my life and one day Ill prove to her thar Ill do anything she wants to make sure I dont lose her.

Shes my ideal woman, shes perfect to me and unlike most guys I base that on more than one thing. Her good traits outweight the bad ten thousand to one, in fact her only flaw is that I am not the one in which shes in love.