LostHippy's blog: "Poems"

UNDERSTAND Do you understand- What my life is like- Do you know how it feels- To be sexually violated- Of not then why- Do you say you understand- You used to tell me everything- Now you tell me nothing- Do you understand- Why I hurt so much- If you do please tell me- Because I don't know- Why I feel so low- If you understand problem- Then why won't you help me- To solve it- But that would be too easy- Instead you just create more- By telling me you understand- When you don't- So please don't tell me you understand- Because you couldn't even possibly begin to know- What I feel- Please stop playing these games- You used to tell me you loved me- Now you won't even look at me- Or much less talk to me- I remember all the talks we had- You said," I Understand"- Now I know you- You never understood- You just wanted to make it better. Will you ever Understand ?

TOUCH MY HEART Touch my heart and I'll touch yours- With a gentle word or two- For that kindness bares the sweetest fruit- That Makes our dreams come true- Touch my life with tenderness- And fill my cup with love- Share my dreams as I share yours- Beyond the stars above- Take my hand as I grow old- And lead me when I'm blind- Show me that you really care- Good friends are hard to find- Touch my heart and I'll touch yours- A little bit more each day- Until we both find happiness- Somewhere along the way.

REMEMBER I remember the love we had- and all the talks we shared- I remember that special night- and how it felt so right- When you held me tight- I remember what we had- It was so special- So what happened- Don't answer that, because I know it was my fault- I remember how much you cared- But I guess I got scared- I remember loving you- and always thinking of you- I remember you calling me everynight- and me longing to hold you tight- I never wanted you out of my sight- I remember your warm embrace- and you smiling face- I remember how I hurt you- and how I deceived you- I remember how I felt- and what it was all about- I remember finally letting go- and trying to forget you- But I couldn't- Because I loved you- Remember ?

PAIN The pain in my heart is dwelling- It goes deeper and deeper into my soul- I have nothing left to share with anyone but myself- The pain in my heart is the strongest- And the deepest emotion- That can ever be felt by one person- Pain can hurt everyone- There are too many types of pain- With nothing left to gain- So don't hide your pain- Because there is nothing worse- Than going through life with all of that hidden- Pain.

PAIN Pain inside my heart- It wont go away- I long to be near you- Everynight and everyday- It's like a fire deep in my soul- It's flames are tearing at my heart- I wonder if it will ever go away- But at last it still burns away- How will I ever be able to live my life- Without you in it- You're just a memory of suffering pain in my soul

MEMORIES Memories remain the same- With little change- We rearrange events of pain- To minimize the thoughts that strain- And at times we see the good- Which is often misunderstood.

LOVE There is no difficulty- that enough love will not heal- No door that enough love will not open- No gulf that enough love will not bridge- No wall that enough love will no throw down- No sin that enough love will not redeem... It makes no difference- how deeply seated may be the trouble- How hopeless the outlook- How muddled the tangle- How great the mistake- A sufficient realization of love- Will dissolve it all... If only you could love enough- You would be the happiest- And most powerful being in the World

I'M SORRY I've been sitting here racking my brain- Trying to find the words to explain- There has to be some special way- Some perfect words that I can say- I'm sorry can't make up for the way- I ruined your start to a lovely day- I've tried so hard to hide my pain- The endless tears that I cry- With nothing to gain- I must find a way to share with you- Exactly what I'm going through- But how can I make you see- That which is a mystery to me- Our love is all that gives me hope- Together we can cope- If I find a way to hide my pain- And if I try real hard not to complain- Can I bring the sunshine back again?

IF YOU ONLY KNEW You are my sunshine- You are my life- I would love to be your wife- I know you're not ready- I just hope our relationship- Will remain to be steady- I know you care- So I wouldn't dare- Risk the love that I have to share- I will do whatever it takes- And try not to make any mistakes- I feel my love- Is sweet and pure - This I know for sure- Because what we share- Is so wonderful- My love is true- If you only knew- I don't mean to be a bother- I just want to know- When will we be together- My feelings are strong- So will I have to wait long- When you're ready- I know you will tell me- IF YOU ONLY KNEW CONT. So until we can be together- I'll just keep waiting- If you only knew- Exactly everything- That I would do- I know you would- Want me too- I will be waiting forever- I don't want to be your mother- I want to be your lover- and your friend too- I will save everything for you- If you only knew- That everything- That I describe to you- Is everything that I would do- To make sure- That you will always- Feel secure- If you only knew- Exactly how much I care- I wouldn't dare betray you- I couldn't stand the thought- Of living without you- Right here by my side- If you only knew- The words that I say- Can't even express the way- That I feel towards you- There's this unexplainable- Warmth and brightness- That grows within me- If you only knew- I wish I could explain it to you- This undeniable experience- Comes to me from loving you- If You Only Knew.

HOW MUCH I CARE I care so much for you- Even though I can't touch you- I Love You- At least I thought you knew- We've been so different since you left- I wanted so many times to tell you- How sorry I was- For what I put you through- I wanted you so much- How I longed for your touch- It hurt so much- When you weren't here for me to touch- I never thought about how you'd feel- When I betrayed you- I never forgot the relationship we had- When you left I was so sad- I remember how I felt when I saw you- How I didn't quite know what to do- When I saw you again- All my feelings surfaced- And I remember all the pain I felt- When I knew you were gone- I never thought that I would ever see you again- Oh, I felt so lost- I want you to know exactly "How Much I Care!"